Rueben

I’m soft, I cry easily, I feel whenever I see someone suffering, I care a lot. But sometimes I get to see so much beauty and I get to cry happy tears and think about my loved ones, and to be grateful to be alive and experiencing so much. I must allow myself to. Life itself feels like a gift these days, and allowing myself to just be me is only fair, and now restraining myself based on “what will people think if they see me cry” seems so silly. Who cares?

YOUR ART IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!! I would like to eat and savor all its colors :)

I love humans and their expression through art. When they create stuff it’s such an honor to experience, it’s like sharing a part of their soul.

I made this a year ago stoned out of my mind ♥️it was a vibe. My favorite quote ever!

Look at that painting. It's not doing anything to be appealing to you. It reminds you of something nice just because it's here.

Look at the moon. It has spots and it keeps going through phases. It's not doing you any personal favours. You still love looking at it just because its here.

Look at the stars. They are so far away and you only see them twinkle. You still love gazing at them just because they are here.

Look at the sun. You can't live without it even if on some days its heat is scorching. You still love the days when its heat is the best feeling on your skin. Just because it's here.

Where did my dreams go to hide?

Sun said, "you'll never see them, they died"

"I'll remember them for you" ocean cried

Birds sang to whisper "they lied"

While she being loved under the heaven's skies.

So I asked the moon,

Where did my dreams go to hide?

"In the nights, the prayers i heard,

'Please give everything she wants' as I remembered,

Boy this is what she ever wanted."

'But not from him' she told to a bird.

"Don't your heart feel little light,

Just by knowing she had a good life?

Some stranger is gonna commit your crime,

And she's gonna feel the same this time."

"No a dream cannot ever go to hide,

Someone is gonna live them even after you die"

"Then why do I feel this weight tonight?" Asked I

"It's human nature to be selfish" the moon smiled.

until someone stares at you.

until you compare yourself to others.

until you feel the fear of aging.

until someone assults you.

until someone makes you feel unsafe.

until you notice the horrors of the world around you.

until you want to crawl into a hole where no one will look at you.

until you feel like you can do nothing at all.

and you have to find ways to stop these things. these things that you can not change, and barely influence.

and you think nothing in the world is fixable. you arent fixable.

until you see friends laugh together.

until you have a nice moment with a stranger.

until you look at the beauty of nature.

until you talk about these issues with others.

until you find community.

until you find yourself.

And obviously your boundaries with your friends are completely up to you but you do need to recognize that if you cut off everyone who has done something wrong, you’re going to end up with no friends (and you yourself will have also fucked up in your life, and not lived up to those impossible standards either).