mora_illusttt

ig : @/melancholic.daughter

Currently in a situation where i could've said no and be by myself 8 months ago...

mood.

Moi

Well, it's 1:24am right now. Can't sleep. Well, you see, I've had enough I think. When there are things that reminds me of you, it doesn't hurt anymore. When I heard or read your name, I don't feel a thing. I'm good now. Even my ig account that I thought was to reminisce you, now I put my drawings on it, to tell myself that i'm done with you. And it's a good thing. Eventhough i'm still struggling. No, not with you. But with life. Y'know, things like, you had a plan, but it's not like what you planned, blablabla. When I switch into my personal account, then I saw my colleagues' stories (ig, snaps), they're enjoying life, enjoying their friends' company, they always look happier than me. And I'm a bit jealous. Like, some of my friends are graduating and things like that, but I'm struggling with mine... OH WELL WHY AM I LIKE THIS??? negativity, please go away. thanks~ ^^

When i'm older i wish i have her taste of fashion

Don't mind reading this. Just skip ahead lol So, I think this is the day where I can finally say goodbye to you. It's kinda a crazy ride this past months for my feelings. Years, even. I think the reason why I can't moved on is that I didn't have the chance to say goodbye. It's not a proper goodbye. It only felt like we stopped talking. And I was hoping that it's not over. I was miserable for this past 3 months. I tortured myself with things that I know will never happen, such as, maybe you'll come back or something like that. But then I keep my hopes down. At last I was just hoping for a sign. Any sign, anything that shows me you're still exist. After you showed up on my timeline and you are fine and happy with your life, I feel content. I don't feel sad anymore. Not as sad as I was three months ago when we apart. Not as sad as two years ago that I realized you already found your love one. Not as sad as a year ago when you married her. Not as sad as couple months ago when you said you'll move out of town. Not as sad as I have to convinced myself that I have to be okay after all that. It feels like, "okay, he's fine, he's okay. I can move on now". I think I feel relieved now. I can say I am fine now. I'm alright. I'm okay. I think it's time to say goodbye. This is the real one. So... Goodbye. Be good. And I wish you well. (I never thought i'd move on lol wow it took me three months. Three miserable months!)

Found her on pinterest. I think she's soo cute