meghan. too old for this.
sometimes i'm a one direction hockey blog but mostly i'm a shitty blog.
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okay given the influx of new followers i've had in the last several weeks/months (hi, welcome, you're probably here for willmack? sorry you're getting A LOT of ryan leonard instead, except i'm not actually sorry about that at all), figured i'd do a quick intro post so you all know my whole deal:
i'm actually a 1000+ year old reanimated bog body. you are always welcome to send me an ask and i will read it, but my bog brain may not remember to respond for awhile, if at all. that's my bad
i am big on citing my sources, but i'm also big on making stuff up. if it's not clear in my posts, i am rpf-ing here. that means i'm creating narratives based on facts, so while it might be rooted in truth, at the end of the day it's still fiction. if you have trouble differentiating fact from fiction, or are new to rpf and still learning, please familiarize yourself with how rpf fandom works so you too can have fun playing in this sandbox!
speaking of how rpf works, i am also big on maintaining boundaries between rpf content and the subject(s) i am rpf-ing about. please do NOT repost any of my posts (or fic) to unlocked twitter, tiktok, or anywhere else with a fervent algorithm that might put this content in front of the eyeballs of the people i'm being weird on the internet about, or in front of people who know them irl (such as their friends, family members, or beat writers). i'm trusting you all to use your best judgment here!
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might be wrong since I know literally nothing about zeev, but unless he has made any statements in support of israels actions why is the discourse “I can’t fault people for being uncomfortable with him given his HERITAGE” ??
Like it’s not possible to do anything about your ethnicity … and if we are holding descendants of genocidal countries accountable for being a citizen of said country I fear white Americans and Canadians don’t really have room to act “uncomfortable” ? Also I don’t want to hear about how one is “recent” and one isn’t, we (Americans) literally caused the meaningless deaths of untold innocents in the Middle East as recently as right now, we enable quite literally everything that is happening currently
again I have no clue if he has given any sort of political statement, I am just generally speaking against the high horse I sometimes observe from fellow Americans where it’s very easy for them to separate themselves from the cruel actions of their government but that nuanced view vanishes when it comes to citizens of other countries and we start speaking like some people are born ontologically evil
phew okay let me preface this by saying i am not the final authority on any of this, and i think it is very difficult to have a nuanced discussion about this topic on a semi-public platform like tumblr where responding to one person opens up the floor to everyone's opinions on an incredibly complex and multifaceted issue. i have strong opinions on fandom and fandom ethics because i spend a lot of my time engaging with fandom, and at the end of the day the stakes are fairly low. issues like colonialism, genocide, one's responsibility as a citizen in the face of your country/government's actions when you disagree (or are victimized/face steep consequences yourself by your own government depending on what form of activism you take) - these are not easy issues to navigate! my hockey rpf blog is not really equipped for it lol. and i don't think there is necessarily a right or wrong answer here, as there are so many various factors at play and everyone is going to navigate things slightly differently - not better or worse than anyone else, just differently. i'm just asking that if we are going to have this discussion at all, we assume good faith - that no one is intentionally trying to do harm & that at the end of the day, we're doing the best we can with imperfect conditions.
anyway, that being said, here is some more zeev context: https://moondoggiestyle.tumblr.com/post/806498388434616320/obviously-super-nuanced-issue-with-everyones you can read those articles for yourself and form your own opinions, and see what my thoughts were about them, which i still stand by at this point. zeev certainly hasn't denounced israel's actions, but - at least back in 2024 - his primary concern was about israeli family members as perceived victims with no insight/concern about any genocidal actions. so when i say zeev's heritage, i mean that he has not, to my knowledge, untangled his jewish/israeli identity from the zionist agenda he was clearly raised in (does this phrasing make sense?). however i also don't see strong evidence that he's using his platform as an nhl player to push these political beliefs either, since he doesn't often talk about this topic or bring it up himself, and when he does, it appears to all be contextualized about how it impacts him/his family and not his own political dogma (if the two can even be fairly separated this way). but that's my interpretation, and someone else might draw a different conclusion, and i don't begrudge anyone who does.
so to your point - that's why i, personally, don't hold zeev to a higher standard than any american hockey player who i know to be a trump fan (especially as it's most of them). i tend to disengage from guys who choose to zealously publicly platform their conservatism and trumpism because it icks me out, but i'm well aware most of these guys are apolitical at best and generally conservative about the political stances they do hold. if zeev started posting zionist talking points in his instagram stories and supporting the IDF, yeah, i'd drop him! but i also think it's perfectly fine to be uncomfortable with his actions (or inactions, as it were) as it stands, as he is certainly sympathetic to israel, even if it's just because he feels his family members are in harm's way, which is my generous read of the situation. everyone can, and should, decide their own boundary lines here but i do think there's a lot of nuance and complexity and conflicting values. it's tough!
kinda crazy that you got exaggeration allegations when the windshield anger smash story is like one of the widely accepted and known chara reveal notes from last season lmao. will/toff underplaying it def contributed to the woobying of that whole aspect. but like hearing that mack lost his temper at a meaningless practice is the least surprising thing ever - signed a mackhead with reason lmaoooo
me and la @workingforitallthetime watched mack miss 2 shootout goal attempts in a sharks practice and then FLING HIS STICK into the rafters with our own two eyeballs (i guess four eyeballs would the total count in this story, we have two eyeballs each, not one) only to have a bunch of people on twitter who were not at that practice tell us he was joking actually and how dare we imply otherwise. well actually i think they screenshotted our silly little write up for tumblr and reposted THAT onto twitter to call us liars, which i did not care for.
not to say that fandom was without its flaws before, but this is all part of my beef with how popular wm in particular has gotten - you used to be able to call hockey players out for their unsavory behaviors! relish in them! mack and his inability to self-regulate when he's big mad is one of my favorite canon details about him! it is barely even a flaw in the wider context of hockey! i think it's fine for new fans to get into hockey, but if they refuse to understand or engage with hockey culture & understand its impact on hockey players, i have no patience for the way they operate in fandom.
I loved the winner’s room fic!! The concept of Mack using his captain privileges to keep Will out of the room 🤭 love that
thank youuu!! it was fun to think about the structure/social norms about the winners room and how that would influence mack in particular... i wanted it to come across that mack stepping in for will was WEIRD of mack and that other guys would perceive it that way. a captain stepping in is basically a message to the other team saying 'you crossed a line picking who you picked and now you have to deal with me' which rarely happens because guys know the drill & don't want to rock the boat. (picks that cross the line would be, in my head, maybe the losing goalie, a guy who got injured, or vets - i think the winner's room, in my particular verse, is something younger players get picked for as it's seen as a rite of passage/doing your time before you've earned your status as a more seasoned player). like, no one is picking reaves for the room, you know? it made will look like he was getting special treatment (which he was) when mack stepped in for him. this is all only implied in the fic of course, because we're in mack's head and he's justifying all of it, and he does not especially care about the unwritten rules of the room. he cares that leno does not get his dick sucked by will.
i mean mack fans are AT LEAST as bad as will fans with the woobyfing but whatever
they sure are! i have made mack fans on twitter very angry by suggesting he lost his temper at practice once and been accused of lying (for clout? to ruin his reputation? unclear). i am well aware of what they're capable of lol.
but the ask i was responding to was about will, so my response was about will. mack also does display flashes of that temper and i regularly call him an awful gremlin about it (people also get mad at this). he's also had several instances now where he's been obviously drinking/partying in public - i 100% approve of this behavior, i think it's normal 19 year old behavior, nothing he did is any wilder than an average college student lol - but he has a less squeaky clean image than will, who has been busy this offseason cultivating his image as a baker & playing charity softball games. mack has certainly not done anything "cancellable" but more... obviously flawed, perhaps? this doesn't change how woobyfing fans treat him, but again: the specific ask i was responding to was about will's image, and my perception is that mack's already has a little delicious tarnish to work with.
anyway look i don't expect you to backread my whole blog before you send me an ask to know my nuanced stance on every opinion i hold, but you also can't expect me to detail all my opinions in every response i post in case someone missed some wider context somewhere.
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genuinely crazy will shooter mad at you for talking about zeev while willmack literally bestie-ed him up. I can’t with them
i suspect they were upset about the perceived slight against will and found that ammunition to be the strongest to fling in my face as a sort of gotcha, but there lies the biggest issue with it. i don't take any issue with people who are uncomfortable with zeev and choose to draw their own line about him because of his heritage. it's something you do have to reckon with about him. but i don't think it's a fair double standard to hold anyone who does engage with zeev to while actively being a fan of will.
idk a lot of times i'd just block an ask like that and move on with my life, but i really don't like the overall trend of moral policing in fandom, particularly rpf. especially hrpf! these guys are flawed and messy and have all probably said/done things we would be horrified by. grappling with that is important. the toxicity of hockey culture is one of the most compelling things to explore via fic. there is no moral high ground here!
also, obviously zeev being israeli is different than your run-of-the-mill hockey guy being misogynistic or whatever, but i have had people bring those specific concerns/discussions into my inbox on their own merit, which is fair. using his heritage in an ask that's meant to defend will really rubs me the wrong way and suggests, to me, that it's less about your sincere concern about genocide and more about your own agenda.
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girl if you wanna drop will so bad and become a full time mackleno, just do it! no need to compare how fans treat will because everyone does it too even to mack and leno! you literally excused zeev the israeli state kid, so no need to tell people what to do when you can excuse genocidal freak ethnic cleansing state. no need to find justification to let your will hate shine ⭐️⭐️⭐️
it took me a bit to puzzle out the will part of your ask - is this in response to my post about saying i want will to get himself cancelled? i do stand by that, but i meant i wanted invasive, annoying fans who put will up on an uwu pedestal and refuse to see that he is a flawed hockey player baked in toxic hockey culture to cancel him for doing regular hockey player shit. i don't plan to cancel him. i will just have more fun playing in this sandbox if that subset of fans moves on. that's why i'm selfish. i don't want to share will with these people. i only want to share him with my sicko friends and mutuals. i'm sorry you misinterpreted that as me hating him.
anyway, clarifying question: is will being friends with zeev an issue, or just me blogging about it? i am certainly not asking anyone to be comfortable with zeev given his israeli heritage, but if you're holding me to that standard, are you holding will to it as well? or does he get a pass?
the worst writing crime you can ever commit in my opinion is watering down the dirty talk because you’re self-conscious that it sounds like it’s from a bad porno…..i cannot stress this enough……leave it alone. the moment you tell yourself he would not fucking say that you’re doomed. people will say almost anything if their dick is hard enough
I’m not sure what was Will’s breaking point but looks like he’s not letting tags on insta anymore or at least looks like he’s going to start approving them himself. None of the recent posts that Will is tagged on are showing up on his profile like Matty’s recent insta post.
interesting... the last post in his tag was from 18 hours ago and matty's post is from 12 hours ago. i cannot imagine what was in his tag in that timeframe to push him over the edge (that he hadn't been seeing all season long lol). but he also liked and commented on matty's post, so funny if he missed seeing/approving matty's tag. anyway, sucks if he did indeed turn that off as far as being able to easily find new posts of him (esp random fan posts when he takes pics with them and then we find out he's in, say, halifax for example) but honestly i think more guys should do this for their safety/image lol. there is some weird shit in his tag.
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