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Not the Spongebob tieeee 😂 I'm dying

Silver to Gold

Today is Witch Hat Monday! ✨I can't wait to see the new episode! I just caught up on the manga recently and oh how my heart is broken 💔so of course I drew fanart ahahaha😭

compare how they react to remembering they were forced onto the ship:

in the book, he stands around in numb ashamed shock at his cowardice for a minute before deciding, against rocky's better judgement, that they should voluntarily subject the hail mary to a six g force again to get the lab equipment up and running instead of just waiting eleven days to get back to the blip-A, and it hurts him a lot and he ends up passing out from it. he locates the problem in his memory as being that he was too caught up in concern for his own wellbeing, so he tries to counterbalance it by opting to do something bizarrely personally risky so they can get back to work more quickly. his refrain in his memories is "I don't want to die."

in the book, he suddenly gets terrified that a good portion of students are going to literally die of starvation in twenty years, so he storms back to the lab and demands that stratt (the most powerful person in the world, has all possible authority, commands the actual US army) give him some astrophage to study. stratt initially thinks this is because he's upset that his one original idea / thing he staked his whole career on got disproved and that he wants to soothe his ego by doing further high-profile work, and while she's sympathetic, it doesn't make her budge. what actually convinces her is when he says he doesn't care about his ego or the fact that he was wrong and that he's really just here to try and save his students. the last time he got publicly shot down he just retreated from the source of humiliation so he wouldn't have to face it, so being willing to square up with the scariest woman alive and go back into this field for the sake of others despite being known as infamous within it is a big change in form for him.

in the film, he tells stratt he's the kind of annoying self-advocating person she's looking for, but then he shies away from it when she asks directly if he wants to be on the project. that's not a question she really needs to ask, obviously he wants to be on the project, he wouldn't have started this conversation with her if he didn't, so her asking isn't actually a measure of his desire but rather a test of if he really has the backbone he's claiming to possess. his first response of "if you think I can help..." is very true to form, he's shrinking back from admitting his own want by asking someone else if they think he's competent enough to be worthy of what he wants, but when prompted again he says "yes, I want to." it's uncharacteristic for him because willingly engaging in something challenging and high-stakes implicitly says he desires it and thinks he can handle it.