Moonchild🌜

love as recognition

im sorry i always leave

Screenplay written by Celine Song

Past Lives (2023) dir. Celine Song

(begin highlight) The best friends of our childhoods are the loves of our lives, (end highlight) and they break our hearts in worse ways.

I hate you for what you did / And I miss you like a little kid

a crude drawing of a figure laying face down on a table in a pool of their own tears

stop looking at me like that, / with pity in your glassy eyes. / all I am to you is a tragedy, right? / Stop it. / Stop fucking looking at me like that. / Do you hear me?

i think the weirdest thing is when stop talking to someone and you still have all this left over information about them. like you still know their favorite song. you know their sibling;s names. you remember their favorite ice cream flavor and their weird dreams they told you about at 2 am. you know their dog's name and their favorite tv shows. you learned all these details about them and now they're gone. it's just weird.

post by markets: the weird thing about growing apart from friends is that you can never fully be rid of them. i don't think once about the girl i promised never to lose contact with for weeks at a time but whenever i see a certain book series i'll think about how much she loved it. i haven't talked to my old friends from camp in months but i'll never not like their pictures when they come up on my feed, and i'll never not like the friends themselves either. and it stings a bit when a boy i used to talk to for hours doesn't say hi to me when i see him in the cafeteria but whenever i see a supermarket cake i'll remember the time in middle school when i brought one to school for his birthday and he ate three slices and told me it was the best cake he'd ever had. you can pull away from friends but never fully break apart. the process of growing apart has a beginning but never an end

You wanted to say sorry / But I wanna see your body in a ditch