So I'm here... Now what?

So I would recommend it. It helps a ton. As well idk how it’ll fare for you, but I use meditation as time to think and reflect, and lately it’s been me sitting and meditating for a solid 4-5 hours straight. So you could potentially have to make time for it, but don’t stress over making time otherwise it’ll ruin the experience. :Smile:

Instead of being frantic and trying to kill myself many times a week, cuz let’s be frank, that’s never going to be a valid solution. I looked at myself, and who I was when I was going through that, and it’s not who I am. Who I am at my core was brought out years ago when I was into tai chi and meditation. Since high school I’ve had a Taoist mind set, but I lost focus on it and my life was plagued with negativity, and it bleed into me. I’m not a negative person at heart. I have a dark twisted since of humor sure, but not out of hate or to cause hurt. And my core I care about the life everyone has, we all have a universe inside of us. And meditation helps me focus, I have to sessions of it. One in the morning to ask for guidance from the Tao, to help make sense of thing, or even to guide me to making the right choice on the toughest of questions on how to approach things, cuz I am only human, as much as I would love to be in control of everything in my life, there’s always a curveball and I’ll never be in full control. So the guidance helps enormously. As well as letting me expel negativity and hate that has plagued me, and allow positivity into my heart and realign my chi. At night I do it for the expel of negativity and such, but as well for relaxing after the course of the day has been played out.