ARCHIVIST.

Afraid for Jon hours

“Just– explain to me how you hope to interview anybody in the state you’re in. Jon.” He was tired; his archives were damaged, which he’d been expecting, but he’d also been expecting to go home afterwards and enjoy a hot cup of tea and a good night’s sleep. Instead, he was sitting in a small cleared circle of floor, while people in hazmat suits swept up worm carcasses in the next room, staring at his Archivist ( what a thrill! his Archivist, coming along at last ) and the recorder in his hand in bafflement. “We can do this in the morning.”

“No, I need to do this now. While it’s still fresh on everyone’s minds, while it’s still-” he cuts himself off, making a frustrated noise. “I’m fine. So... just tell me what happened.”

“ you’re always coming back. ” “ you fear you’ve been replaced. ” “ it was your love that caused all this. ” “ it was you that made me this way. ” “ suddenly, being heartless was better than being heartbroken. ” “ we have found ourselves. ” “ i wish changing my heart was as easy as changing my mind. ” “ and they wonder why the good know so much pain. ” “ the snow makes the cemetery look alive. ” “ the heart takes too long to figure out what the mind already knows. ” “ i learned to live without you. ” “ just a funeral held in memory of the person i was. ” “ you deliberately destroyed me. ” “ what was there to love? ” “ i now know that i was in this alone. ” “ i find myself pretending to be fine. ” “ my smile is usually a mask. ” “ you’ll think i’m weak. ” “ it’s easier said than done. ” “ you’re always alone whenever real shit occurs. ” “ all of this is all of nothing. ” “ you’re full of pain, but filled with fight. ” “ the idea of getting married scares me. ” “ i have nothing more to offer than myself. ” “ i don’t really recognize the person i’ve become. ” “ a year can change a lot. ” “ you no longer deserve my thoughts. ” “ i am ashamed for having given in to your pleas. ” “ i want to dance with you. ” “ my spine has been weighed down by a life of despair and disappointment. ” “ how brave it is, to love completely. ” “ i’ll try for you, because you’re worth it. ” “ sometimes nightmares are people. ” “ being alone brings me closer to peace. ” “ you’ve become like a prison. ” “ i’m planning ways to escape you. ” “ i remember everything i don’t want to. ” “ i struggle to comprehend your inability to love me as much as i loved you. ” “ you’re relying on a broken mirror. ” “ i’ll rebuild without you. ” “ loving you meant that i didn’t love myself. ” “ tomorrow will be even harder. ” “ i’ve accepted my fate. ” “ you took what you wanted. ” “ i am trying to find myself under the rubble of my own heart. ” “ i’m tired of pretending it doesn’t hurt. ” “ i was wrong about you. ” “ the truth always rises to the surface. ” “ they’ve gotten what they wanted from you. ” “ heartache made me so fucking unforgiving. ” “ in you, lives a love that most people won’t be able to comprehend. ” “ they’re no longer good for you. ” “ you can’t find love in places filled with hate. ” “ who will understand my scars? ” “ i just want to stop thinking about you. ” “ i hope those lies burn your lips. ” “ i barely recognize myself anymore. ” “ my most dangerous habit is overthinking. ” “ this was never meant to work. ” “ i’d like to learn you. ” “ i’d like to love every part of you. ” “ you struggle to fit in places where you don’t belong. ” “ you’re only here because your friends wanted to go. ” “ love me when things are bad. ” “ love me through my imperfections. ” “ never apologize for burning too bright. ” “ i was willing to drown for them. ” “ shallow compliments have no meaning. ” “ i yelled because i actually cared. ” “ i only argued with you because i gave a fuck. ” “ i should have been a bit clearer about what i was asking for. ” “ no one wants to be alone. ” “ there is loneliness in being with the wrong person. ” “ and i continue to burn. ” “ it hurts like hell. ” “ i accept you as you are. ” “ you’re still beautiful to me. ” “ you were only meant to be temporary. ” “ slowly, death crept up behind me. ” “ holding onto you was killing me. ” “ i nearly lost my damn mind. ” “ i can love you, but only from a distance. ” “ some people are more lovable when they’re not around. ” “ you’re a sinner, i’m your accomplice. ” “ a moment of weakness doesn’t define your strength. ” “ i won’t miss you. ” “ one day you’ll understand. ”

i am the monster you created.

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