I have got to do this alone. Nobody gets it, nobody wants to listen, and nobody would really care if anything happened to me. I'm half-baked. I'm annoying, sad and hopeless. I really need a friend more than I ever have and I'm ghosted constantly. People are living their own lives. My fiance can't be everything for me and I don't expect them to be. The bridges that I have burned are definitely destroyed. My dad's side of the family doesn't contact me now that my step-mother has passed. They needed a reminder that I exist and now I don't. My mom's side never approved of me. I'm not easy to be around. I want to shrink into nothing. Rejection is at an all time high and nobody seems to want me around. If I could have a fresh start I would but those people would probably get tired of me, too. I'm tired of me. Maybe I should just sleep.
















