Random Encounter Library. pick a subject, role the dice. It might even be here. (otherwise known as I have eclectic interests) Note: Elrond has taken up a large percentage of the die.
Pick a subject, role the dice. It might even be here. (otherwise known as I have eclectic interests) Note: Elrond has taken up a large percentage of the die.
It seems that being on Tumblr has given me courage to do something I never thought I'd return to. Post Fanfic on-line. Besides, I've taken it as a personal affront that AI has stolen the grammar I worked so hard to learn.
Those are my EM dashes and you cannot have them! Get back fell beast! Back in the stolen void from whence the CEOs spawned you! Back I say!
Apart from writing, I'll post bad attempts at drawing, crafts I enjoy and amusing things that pop into my head. I'll also re-blog whatever my eclectic heart desires.
But First, the Fan fic stuff:
I now have 2 Pseuds on AO3. The first is where I've been posting all the Tumblr events I enjoyed. The ones that got me posting fics again. For the moment It's all Tolkien. That will change as I develop my other fandom fics, now the dam has burst again.
Main AO3 works are on this profile: Of a Fallen Realm Works
More below the cut
I also have a second Adults only one. If you're reading this, and you're interested in smut. This is where my attempts will go.
Warning though: I can't promise good. I'm exploring new horizons, that until recently I was not comfortable writing. I do not even have a beta reader for these.
After Dark O.a.F.R Works
Summary: After Celebrían wakes from being healed, in Valinor. She contacts Elrond. She hopes to pick up where they left off in their little Ósanwë Pleasure Room…
It currently has a single entry, that is shaping up to be multi-chapter.
AO3: Ósanwë Pleasure Room
Yes, it's another Celrond fic.
It should be noted here that previous fic predated AO3, and really should be left in the "Teenage angst, what was I thinking" pile.
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"And so they stood on the walls of the City of Gondor, and a great wind rose and blew, and their hair, raven and golden, streamed out mingling in the air."
latest finished commission, where i had the opportunity to go with my own vision of the characters, and here's what i landed on... they may look like squares but i know they freak4freak in their hearts etc.
curufin has better things to do than pose for picture day. he has a son to raise. baby tyelpe decided that he also has better things to do, like seeing if his father’s hair is good leverage for climbing (spoiler: it’s not)
the problem of racism in tolkien fandom will not be resolved for as long as people believe that the mere act of critique is a violence in itself, and that therefore having made a critique, the person who has made a critique can either be unpersoned or that norms of politeness no longer apply. of course, this fandom is too "polite" to do slurs in askboxes for the most part, but there are other mechanisms of rude communications that fly in the name of "debate". do you think its polite to misread someone and then accuse them via that misreading, of not extending enough grace to a dead historical figure? personally, i think that's quite rude as a quibble, not least because of the total disengagement with the actual arguments being made. do you think its polite to send people snide asks for weeks on end, insisting on them defending their viewpoint, their specifically racial critique of the canon? personally, i think not! but you know, ymmv.
the problem of racism in tolkien fandom will not be resolved for as long as it takes (primarily) non-white fans doing the careful work of exposition and critique in order to uncover and engage with tolkien's racism and genealogies of his thinking for any non-apologetic engagement with tolkien and race to occur in fandom. and what do i mean by non-apologetic engagement? i mean that so far outside of a very small selection of tolkien academics (and a tiny handful of white fans) who i can all roughly count on my fingers, very few expositions of race in tolkien's work are not accompanied by a cringing apology that insists that a) tolkien was not racist himself personally and b) he was a man of his time and c) that there clearly were "exceptions" to his racial ideology in his works. this defensive pose allows the protective psychological mechanisms of political whiteness to continually step in and therefore absolve itself of engagement with race in tolkien's text. to put it plainly: i am claiming that the problem of racism in tolkien fandom, in specifically making tolkien fandom a hostile space for fans of colour, will not be resolved for as long as white fans cannot call tolkien a racist. if that sounds hardline, so be it.
the problem of racism in tolkien fandom will not be resolved for as long as it is largely only non-white fans investing the time and energy in expositing and critiquing race and tolkien specifically within a fandom space. it will not be resolved for so long as non-white fans are forced to rehearse and explain racist ideas, histories and thinking to white fans who refuse to do any amount of research themselves, or who settle on an anodyne "listen to non-white voices". believe me it is not very hard to do the research if you are actually interested in creating a non-hostile atmosphere and space for non-white fans. but that process has to be co-creative. i am inviting you to participate in actually doing this hard work of critique and conversation because you care about race and because, hopefully, you care about your non-white brethren within fandom spaces.
the problem of a hostile atmosphere towards non-white fans in tolkien fandom is not a problem that non-white fans can resolve, but one that i think falls to white fans to police, resolve and make socially unviable. if there is something i want to communicate persuasively, i think it would be this: what exactly do the norms of "politeness" in the fandom serve? how are you thinking about what is polite and what is not? what feelings are you prioritising when any attempt to engage with race is treated as "hurting" people's feelings or making things "less fun"? what feelings are being prioritised when discussions abt race in the texts are labelled "fandom discourse" or "fandom wank"? what feelings are being prioritised when a non-white fan is being asked to extend grace to a dead white historical figure? are you able and willing to police such communications even internally, even when you think non-white fans are absent from your conversations? when they aren't watching? or is it only something you become aware of when a non-white fan turns their eyes on you? these are questions i would like liberal white fans to ask themselves and to have a serious debate about.
lastly, all of these things have been said many times before in many other fandoms and even within tolkien fandom. i think that should invite some amount of reflection.
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Once I danced, in green fields and bright sunshine. Once I wove flower crowns and wore the softest silk.
Once I heard the tinkling river and the laughter of children. In Minas Ithil was my carefree life.
Once…
Now the light is fell and dark; the river black as ink. All that exists is cursed and wrong. My dance now cursed, my life long gone. I tarry here, trapped in death. Now feet poison the flowers I loved. Now my dance eternal steals the laugher and brings only screams. Now my spirit lingers here, in service to the witch king.
I am so sorry @tolkienhorrorweek This was my first tumblr event. I didn't know how they worked. Thank you for finding & reblogging. (I'll reblog the others now and actually tag you)
see people keep asking me to write the prayers au instalment in which comrade maedhros and co visit england but i always refuse purely because it would just be. like. boring right. zero stakes. the racism of 1977 britain would have no impact on the comrade. because yeah sure the guy may be small to medium fry in the indian political gangstersphere. there, he may simply be a piranha in an ocean of sharks. but in the british gangster space, he is a shark in a goldfish bowl. he would be a monster truck against an army of frogs. you might think oh, surely you could do something with his attitude to/command of english. i could not. this is a man who, despite gil galad’s best efforts, has never once felt an inferiority complex about his english. quite the contrary. he finds it the most amusing thing in the world. some officer would tell him to speak proper english and the comrade would giggle politely, and then hold him underwater until he drowned. like i said. zero stakes.
you know where you should be asking me to send him though. for peak comedic gauntlet. not 1977 britain, but 1977 italy. why? because in 1977, the top running show on italian television, in fact top ten across many european countries, was the historical pirate show sandokan, starring green-eyed indian actor kabir bedi as the eponymous malaysian pirate, sandokan.
now. speaking in-universe, this guy in this getup is the closest we will ever get to a faceclaim for comrade maedhros. he may not wear a traditional turban but he often does wear some kind of head covering or scarf. he wears eyeliner in this exact way. he literally just looks like this. he looks like this because the sandokans of the world look like this. the whole point is that the comrade looks like this. every single box of sexy dangerous evil mysterious orientalist fantasy-nightmare of the european imaginary is checked here. and the italians of 1977, frothing at the mouth over sandokan yet deprived from him because the actor lives not in milan but in bombay. do you think a single italian in 1977 knows the difference between an arab-coded kozhikodan muslim, and a half-french actor from bombay? nay, to them, he would be sandokan in the flesh. comrade maedhros arriving in 1977 italy would be just the plotline of the german book/film er ist wieder da in which adolf hitler wakes up in modern germany and the german people turn him into a major comedy star, except instead of hitler it would be some random ass orientalist pirate character and instead of comedy star it would be wwe prizefighter.
but man the comedic potential of this is elite and this is what you should be asking me to write. because you know the best part? the comrade would not find british racism or just general brit weirdness surprising at all, because he knows a lot about them (derogatory) due to the whole cultural imperialism situation. however, being a man who almost exclusively consumes mainstream american b horror and action film/tv, he would have no fucking clue who sandokan is. he would have no clue why people are stopping him in the street and taking pictures with him. he would genuinely just assume the italians have elected him as the new pope. for no reason whatsoever than the fact that they, unlike everyone else, realise what a fucking great pope he would make. he’s also conservative enough to assume that every european man is gay so he would also probably think he has realised his life’s dream and has been elected global gay president.
and when he does find out? when he does find out about sandokan? believe me when i say he would gladly play into it. he would fly to bombay, kill kabir bedi, take the role, naturalise himself as an italian citizen, and there would be 45 seasons of sandokan. finnu would set himself up in milan and fritter away the remnants of the bishop’s estate on handbags in every colour possible. they would then bring the rest of the family over. maglor would establish himself as the most in-demand gigolo in italy, living out his days in the lap of the richest women of venice and using his ill-gotten gains to shower elwing in gifts, a practice which she rightly encourages. curufin would find a desk job in intesa sanpaolo, and caranthir would start up a deliveroo precursor and underemploy his fellow migrants. celegorm would join the mafia and never be heard from again aside from wanted posters. they would live the diasporic dream.
people from the rest of europe would travel to see the comrade, and he would cheerfully pop out of his balcony in a robe and wave to people. like the pope. whom he now has a pitched rivalry with. he would make finnu, born a roman catholic, regularly swear allegiance to maedhros and denounce the pope, and finnu is very fucking confused because surely the whole point of the good friday procession debacle 30 years ago was that it ended in him doing exactly that. anyway. then the italians would elect him as president, obviously, and he would declare italy a marxist caliphate. and the rest, as they say, is history, told in the textbooks about the italy-america jihad of 1985.
forget the frigid touch of london, my friends. this is what you deserve. this is what he deserves. it is what we all deserve.
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I’m not trying to play devil’s advocate about the Tolkien and race post, I agree with most of what you’re saying about the denial. But modern non fiction Marxist critics forget one thing that hopefully fandom doesn’t, that is to give the author grace instead of immediately deciding that the racial politics of his work is intentional. I accept Tolkien was a conservetive, but I find it hard to believe that he was exposed to anti racist thought like we are today. I think it’s important to acknowledge the biases in his writing, but not decide it as intentional, because he’s a linguist based in a very white part of England, whose background is in European history who did not anticipate a world where migration is the norm. Of course that doesn’t make the text less racist but it’s an important thing to consider. That’s all, I agree with your other points.
Thanks for the question, and please bear with me re asks gang, I was stupid enough to leave inbox on for a while, not realising the post would break containment, so I’m snowed under atm ☠️
So there’s a lot of talk about Tolkien being ‘of his time and class’ but precious little about what that environment actually looked like other than comparing him to his fellow religious conservative Oxford dons. ‘Of his time’ is not a neutral statement and it certainly isn’t applicable to Tolkien, but more importantly, ‘norms of his time’ seem to often be, in this fandom, calibrated to ‘what Tolkien said’ rather than ‘what was actually happening then’.
Anyway, I will try to be a little more direct than in that last post. So the “the fundamentally racist elements of the legendarium are because Tolkien was a man of his time” line really annoys me (and others!) because imo it lets Tolkien's own Oxford tea table stand in for the entire twentieth century as if there wasn't an entire world outside the Inkling Orgy arguing furiously about race and empire.
I can give you an example literally from Oxford itself! The Indian Majlis had been meeting at Oxford since 1896! The Majlis, for those who might not be aware, was a full-on political and debating society which produced a fuckton of the people who'd go on to lead independence movements across South Asia. This was not some obscure footnote he would need to trudge to a specialist archive to dig up, and I can confirm that attending debates and discussion groups is, was, and has always been a large part of Oxford University life. Ie this was happening in his university in his lifetime among people of his class group he'd have had every opportunity to meet and engage with, whose existence he absolutely would have been aware of.
Beyond the Oxford ventures, you have things like Moody’s League of Coloured Peoples, founded in London in 1931 and organising against colour bar practices in Britain itself. The West African Students' Union had been running since 1925, building a public anticolonial intellectual culture that fed directly into multiple independence movements of the following decades. CLR James was in England from 1932! And so on and so forth! And many in these organisations were white British activists or public intellectuals or writers! This was a live political and literary scene running in parallel with Tolkien's and explicitly arguing against the racial categories his fiction sought to preserve. Which is to say, I think what’s more likely than ‘the legendarium is the way it is with regards to race because Tolkien didn’t know any such antiracist thought existed’ is that ‘the legendarium is the way it is with regards to race specifically because Tolkien did know such antiracist thought existed’.
can i say i am so glad the guy was not a lazy writer and also that he disliked direct allegory because if one of sharky’s minion gangs in scouring of the shire were called the hobbiton majlis or something, i would probably start cooking people’s cats
Anyway, I’m so tired of how “of his time" just keeps getting used to mean "the time as understood by conservative Oxford dons," when the actual record shows Black British and colony diasporas and white progressives were producing sustained public counter-discourse in the same space the whole time, in his own country, in his own language, in his literal university. So when people say he was "just a product of his environment," I just always want to know which environment they mean exactly, because the one he was actually in very much did sustain quite a lot of anticolonial thought.
Also just to get into the basics again, bro was famously a philologist, ie not exactly a profession where you could plausibly bumble through life without ever encountering race-as-a-formal-category. Philology in this period, and especially in Oxbridge, was literally a primary engine of race science. The Indo-European/Aryan linguistic apparatus that mapped language families onto racial stock was built by people doing Tolkien's exact job, so I really don’t think he passively inherited racial categories without noticing, he inherited them deliberately through years of formal study, with copious footnotes and his own academic judgement. Like I always find it so funny when people, even on that post, refer to the racial dynamics of the legendarium as ‘unconscious bias’ because I just know Tolkien is spinning like a power drill in his grave every single time, because they just implied he was shit at his job 😭
Anyway, the entire feudal value system of the legendarium runs on inherited blood as a determinant of worth (even within the Shire, ie the most ‘normal people not kings of men’ place, where Sam is placed as a Good Man Friday), and this is a very well known fact within fandom. Aragorn's legitimacy is genealogical-first and earned-second, the blood of Númenor "running true" in some lines and "thinning" in others is outright presented as a real, quasi-biological fact about a person's capacity for greatness, and not to forget Faramir’s entire speech about greater and lesser men, and the ‘childless lords sit alone while barbarians bay at the gates’ bit.
Or if you prefer a Silm example, (note: the context of the exile and whether or not you think they deserved what they got is irrelevant to this point) but the Doom of Mandos and the Noldorin re-entry ban, when viewed as a mechanism detached from context, is fundamentally just the ontological excision of a ‘birthright citizenship’ as a consequence of a person’s actions. Idk how big this was outside the UK but remember when Shamima Begum was extensively groomed as a child and fucked off to join ISIS and the UK decided to strip her of citizenship and leave her stateless? This is basically just that, ie the legitimisation of an ontologically confirmed birthright citizenship that can be granted to exceptional cases at the behest of the ruling body (see: Hobbits, Peredhels) due to their extraordinary actions, but also can just as easily be taken away by the same ruling body in response to a transgression. Like this is literally just present-day ‘migrant criminality’ discourse, how can you say he didn’t anticipate the rise of postcolonial global migration 😭
(once again to the reader, please let me reiterate i am simply comparing the mechanism of the exile alone, i am not saying that the Fëanorians are fucking ISIS, and i certainly am not saying that the exiled Noldor are the equivalent of stateless refugees, so pls don’t jump up my ass 😭)
Tolkien wasn't writing this in a vacuum where phrenology was a fringe pseudoscience nobody respectable touched, it was institutionally embedded and state sanctioned British science well into the interwar period, with its own society and journals, and an enormous presence in Oxbridge. Moral and mental character of Great Men™️ being first fixed by descent and the subsequent positive/negative shaping of character by choices and environment being seen as a somewhat effective yet undeniably secondary mechanism, is literally the loadbearing premise of race science. It’s not a borrowed aesthetic! The entire legendarium runs on this logic!
Once again, and this is also re: a few reblogs of my original post that take a similar route, what do you mean ‘he did not anticipate a world where migration is the norm’??? 😭The legendarium isn’t a product of 1937 alone, bro was notoriously still tinkering with its genealogies and societal architecture well into the 1960s and early 70s and pretty much until the day he died, like a fucking dweeb (for once, complimentary), hence why it takes the fragmented form it does. That's a working lifespan that runs through major global decolonisation, Windrush, the 1958 Notting Hill race riots, the 1962 Commonwealth Immigrants Act, through literally the entire long and convoluted and drawn out process by which Britain had to publicly and unavoidably reckon with the idea that the empire's subjects were now their neighbours. At some point we need to truly engage with what "of his time" means, ie we have to reckon with the fact that “his time” kept moving and the foundational elements of the legendarium didn’t.
And to bring up the same example from my original post but in a different light, Tolkien was completely capable of precise and deliberate racial argument the second it was framed as being about himself rather than his fiction. In said well known example, in 1938, some German publisher wants confirmation of his "Aryan" descent for translation rights, and Tolkien's (drafted) response is sharp and furiously specific, knowing exactly what's being asked of him by the Nazis and exactly why it's grotesque. Compare that to the total absence of literally any comparable interrogation applied to the Haradrim or orcs, or the entire chronology and geography of Middle-earth where evil consistently arrives from the same two compass directions wearing the same coded features. Man like. Tolkien was honestly a pretty clever guy, and ngl I feel it does him a (very funny) disservice to assume he didn’t have the capacity to scrutinise race to the level he does ☠️
Anyway I think where the fandom focus on “unconscious bias of the era" does not actually originate in a true desire to absolve Tolkien (fair enough, because this is a man who has never once asked to be absolved of the opinions he holds strongly enough to work into his narrative at such depth) the individual, and but rather in the interests of keeping the emotional crutch of loving a beloved childhood text without having to acknowledge that the person who made it was making choices in the same way Rudyard Kipling or Rider Haggard was making choices, and yet very few people offer Haggard this kind of protective custody in present day.
Almost nobody aside from hardcore conservatives sits around saying King Solomon's Mines just "reflected the assumptions of empire" as if Haggard had no hand in shaping said assumptions himself, we read it (correctly) as a deliberately shaped ideological project worth taking seriously as an argument. Tolkien, specifically due to the fandom culture around him both then and now, often gets a pass that even Kipling doesn't, and imo it's not because the textual evidence is thinner but because the fandom loves him more and flinches harder when he’s hit. Which is to say, the insistence on ‘Tolkien was of his time and his time was bad’ being the chosen interpretive lens is less a claim about ‘the time’ Tolkien existed in than it is a claim about us as a fandom today.
On a vaguely related note, I also think ‘this fandom gives grace to the author’ should not be treated as a complimentary statement, especially because one of the elements of the Tolkien fandom which genuinely baffles me is the general air of author-genuflection across the board regardless of what fandom pocket you’re in (and a towards Christopher LMFAOOO) never have I been in a fandom that consistently deifies the creator to this extent, and it’s doubly baffling considering that he isn’t exactly a sensitive up and coming artist but a dude who has enormous mainstream cultural impact and, crucially, has been dead as a doornail for decades.
Like it is quite funny but also on a serious note, whilst the sentiment is understandable because yeah the world and its languages are as immense as the work he put into it and it is very important to so many of us, I think a publicly performed culture of ‘grateful to the author for this wonderful world’ is one of the things that preclude a deeper critical understanding of the legendarium itself. Amusingly, this is literally the only thing that makes me miss the bloodsoaked battlefields of anime fandom, because Masashi Kishimoto may have painstakingly drawn 3 billion pages of Naruto, but 95% of the fandom would probably, upon meeting the guy, tie him to a chair and beat him repeatedly on the head with a rubber hammer going ‘why the fuck did you do this? what the fuck is wrong with you? did you hate twelve year old me personally?’
I have a longer post cooking abt the historical elements of Tolkien as a man of his time re ideological genealogies and contemporaries, but in the meanwhile I just want to say by his own letters (letter 83, written in 1944), Tolkien was an avowed supported of General Franco, which a) most writers of his generation were in active and public opposition to Franco and b) Tolkien spends a not inconsiderate part of his letter bitching about how the notoriously conservative C S Lewis himself is opposed to Franco and infected by "Red propaganda" and c) if it comes to fellow Catholics, Graham Greene himself opposed Franco, even if he was unhappy abt murders of priests. And I also think it is very important to note re the stewarding of these conversations that there are exactly two papers on Tolkien's support for Franco, one by an independent scholar and one by the head of the Tolkien Society in Spain, who managed a private interview with Priscilla Tolkien and who cited her godfather having been a Francoist himself - and THAT author is, guess what??? a fucking Francoist himself. The conversations and scholarship about Tolkien are NOT happening in a neutral and "normal" space.
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Tolkien Horror Week is back for another year of celebrating all the terrifying and unsettling bits of Tolkien's work! The event will run from October 25–31 and accepts all types of fanworks. There is an AO3 collection for the event here.
Below are some suggested prompts for each day of the week. They are not mandatory; feel free to combine them or disregard them entirely.
Day 1: Angband, Utumno, and Tol-in-Gaurhoth | older and fouler things | made and unmade
Day 2: Angmar, Minas Morgul, and Númenor | like shades of night | devoted and damned
Day 3: Mordor and the Dead Marshes | a dark cloud of fear | dead and undead
Day 4: The Barrow-downs and the Old Forest | out of the mist | awake and asleep
Day 5: Mirkwood, Nan Elmoth, and Taur-nu-Fuin | the depths of the wood | hunter and hunted
Day 6: Nan Dungortheb, Ered Gorgoroth, and the Girdle of Melian | weaving webs of shadow | light and unlight
Day 7: Isengard, Moria, and the Paths of the Dead | the deep places of the world | sworn and forsaken
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I accidentally did a Wikipedia binge about 1st wave feminism and fashion and stumbled upon the 1890s bicycle suit. Do people know about this? Why didn't anyone tell me about this? This is dope as hell.
Wikipedia talks about the bloomers and the leg-o-mutton sleeves, but I'm also noticing a lot of these outfits have absolute supervillain lapels, which I also like a lot.
a while ago, a post went around that proposed a victorian era mystery inc. And its only flaw, in my eyes, was that it didnt put Velma in an 1890s bicycle suit. tell me it wouldnt be perfect.