Bara | 23 | She/Her | Owner of @senseandsensesubility

Your writing seems boring and predictable because 

You wrote it

You’ve read it like eight million times.

a ritual invoking aphrodite and beseeching her for her great-ass influence

🍑  gather a pink candle, a peach, sugar, hand lotion and a mirror. 

🍑  invoke aphrodite and prepare an offering

🍑  address her specifically as Kallipygos, “she of the beautiful buttocks”.

🍑  slice the peach in half. crush one half to juice

🍑  sugar and consume the other half. 

🍑  mix the peach juice with the hand lotion

🍑  thank aphrodite, use the lotion on your skin where you deem necessary

The other day, @wandsbrewsandbroomsticks posed a question on her blog.  She asked, “Why isn’t there like a dating app or social app (besides Tumblr) for witches?”  And that gave me a brilliant idea!

What if there was a way to pull up a map and see where other witches were in correlation to where I was?  I have seen it done before, so I decided to go out and search!

INTRODUCING THE WITCH LOCATOR MAP!

Browse the map and see where witches are!  Check out links to their blogs and see others who share your similar interests!

But how do I enter in my own information?  That’s easy.

At the top, there is a section called Additions.  Click there and then hit Add Marker.  From there, fill out the following sections this way:

Under the Location Tab **ENTRY NAME:  @yourtumblrname **LOCATION:  your city **MARKER:  pick a color

Under the Details Tab **DESCRIPTION:  a brief description of what kind of witchcraft you practice and other details. **EMAIL AND PHONE:  do not fill this section out.  We don’t want you giving out personal information that can endanger you! **WEBSITE:  your Tumblr url.

Under the Media Tab **UPLOAD:  share a small picture of yourself or something that represents your blog!

Finish up by clicking Submit!  After that, share with your followers by reblogging this post!

There are rules to this though, witches! 1.  Do not abuse the map.  If you spam an area or harass someone, you will be removed from the map and IP banned from accessing it. 2.  Do not be creepy.  Some people may choose not to reply to any messages you send.  Don’t continue to bother them. 3.  Do not post lewd photos or NSFW content on the map.  We have witches of all ages accessing this map and want it to be an open and safe community. 4.  Do not edit or manipulate other markers.  Like I mentioned before, I can track your IP and you don’t want a mama witch gettin’ mad at ya. 5.  If you are under 18, please ask your guardians’ permission to put your information on the map.

SHARE THIS WITH YOUR FOLLOWERS!  ADD YOURSELF AND MEET OTHER WITCHES IN YOUR AREA!  HAVE FUN AND BE SAFE!

**If you need help with the map, just let me know.

Louis XV:

cleopatra is writing her PhD thesis and is sick of people undermining her intelligence

nefertiti is a child star who fell from grace but rose again like a pheonix

alexander the great is ***NOT GAY*** and on academic probation

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1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

7. earbuds or headphones?

8. movies or tv shows?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring?

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

18. ideal weather?

19. sleeping position?

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

21. obsession from childhood?

22. role model?

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

25. first song you remember hearing?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

30. places that you find sacred?

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone?

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

35. average time you fall asleep?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

38. lemonade or tea?

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

41. last person you texted?

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

44. favorite scent for soap?

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

47. favorite type of cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?

71. least favorite pattern?

72. worst subject?

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

82. pc or console?

83. writing or drawing?

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season?

95. favorite app on your phone?

96. desktop background?

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

🐉 Like dogs and cats, not every dragon is exactly the same. Different types of dragons are determined by the number of limbs they have or the other creatures they resemble.

1. Amphitere

🐉 These dragons are a hybrid, part snake and part bird. They have the body of a serpent from their head to their tail, and their wings (similar to bat wings) sprout from their neck. Depending on the depiction, they might have forelimbs, but they never have any hind limbs.

2. Drake

🐉 In Middle English, Drake actually means dragon. This type has four limbs. They have low slung bodies with their bellies skimming the ground. They look similar to lizards, but are much larger.

3. Hydra

🐉 These dragons are water serpents with multiple heads. Every time one is chopped off, another will grow back in its place. Sometimes, these dragons also have additional tails, wings, or arms.

4. Eastern

🐉 These dragons possess great wisdom. They contain the body of a snake, belly of a frog, scales of a carp, head of a camel, horns of a giant stag, the eyes of a hare, ears like a bull, a neck like an iguana, paws like a tigers, and claws like an eagle.

5. Wyvern

🐉 These dragons are highly aggressive. They possess the head of a dragon (which is wedge-shaped like a crocodile), the wings of a bat, and a long serpent’s tail. They can either have lizard legs or bird legs.

6. Anthropomorphic

🐉 These dragons have human traits. They are tripedal with shortened forearms, which means they are unable to walk on all fours like other dragons. In some depictions, they will also have humanlike digits with fingernails and toes. Not only do they possess physical human qualities, but they also take on human behaviors as well.

7. Dragon Beasts

🐉 These creatures are hybrids of avian species and serpents. They will either have the head of a dragon, the tail of a dragon, or the ability to transform into a dragon. They can also contain the traits of other animals, so they might have cobra fangs or crocodile heads.

8. Western

🐉 These dragons are the servants of sorcerers. They have crocodile scales covering their body and a barbed tail. Their heads can contain either horns, antlers, or a crest. They can also spit fire and other deadly fumes.

9. Lindworm

🐉 These dragons have the head of a horse with a mane covering their neck. Their heads are oversized with bright eyes that burn like coals and their mouth is wide enough to swallow any human man or woman whole.

10. Wurm

🐉 These dragons are serpents with coils that can wrap around hills. They can exhale noxious fumes and move at a quick speed. You can spot them by their horns, large fangs, and bright, wide eyes.

11. African Dragon

🐉 Some people do not actually consider these creatures to be dragons because of their shape. They look more like serpents because they do not have any legs or arms. They resemble giant snakes.

12. Oriental

🐉 Oriental dragons are not dangerous. They are guardians. They protect the heavens and guard the people. They have four legs with four toes on each foot and a serpentine body without any wings attached.

13. Dragonnet

🐉 These dragons look exactly the same as Western dragons — except they are much smaller in size. They range from the size of a finger to the size of a human. Despite their size, they are dangerous because they hunt in packs and have poisonous blood that is lethal when it touches your skin.

14. Cockatrice

🐉 These dragons are either red or green with a yellow underbelly. They have scales covering their body and leather wings. They have poisonous breath, a beak that can kill, and eat anything they see moving.

The Most Famous Dragons

It doesn’t matter if you’re reading stories from Japan, China, Persia, or Europe — because there are dragons in each one. Mythology is filled with stories of winged creatures, both good and evil. Here are some of the most notable ones:

1. Yamata no Orochi

This dragon comes from Japanese mythology. It is an evil dragon with eight heads and eight tails. Every year, he devours a maiden as a sacrifice.

2. Fafnir

Fafnir comes from Norse mythology. He used to be a greedy dwarf, but a curse transformed him into a dragon.

3. Fucanglong

This dragon comes from Chinese mythology. It is an underworld dragon who guards buried treasures, specifically a magical pearl that multiplies when touched.

4. Zmey Gorynych

Zmey Gorynych comes from Slavic mythology. It has three heads and seven tails. It was famously attacked by the warrior Dobrynya Nikitich, but it took three full days of fighting before it was slain.

5. Jawzahr

Jawzahr comes from Persian mythology. It spends all of its time in the sky, chasing around the sun and the moon. Whenever a solar eclipse occurs, it is said that Jawzahr has finally caught up to the sun and moon and swallowed them.

6. Ladon

Ladon comes from Greek mythology. It had 100 heads and wrapped itself around a tree to guard golden apples. He was famously defeated by Hercules after he dipped an arrow into the gall of hydra and stuck the poison into Landon’s flesh.

7. Krak’s Dragon

This dragon comes from Polish folklore. It gets its name from a peasant boy named Krak who defeated it. Krak left a meal of three roasted sheep full of sulfur and hot spices beside the dragon’s cave. When it ate the meal, its gut exploded, killing it.

8. Ayida-Weddo

This dragon is the rainbow serpent who holds up the heavens. Whenever a rainbow is seen in the sky, it is the twin personalities of Ayida-Weddo with the red part of the rainbow identifying as male and the blue part as female. It is also said that Ayida-Weddo’s droppings help nourish the land and the mountains.

9. Kukulkan

Kulkulkan is a feathered serpent from Mesoamerica. It is considered the protector of craftsmen, the rain-maker, the wind-blower, and the fire-bringer. However, this peace-loving dragon was not a fan of bloodthirsty sacrifices.

10. Kur

 ⭐ There are a number of different gems and crystals associated in various traditions for birth months with the zodiac signs under which we are born. I will give a more comprehensive list than usual, as I will suggest you also buy your zodiac crystal angel. If none of the birth crystals feel right, substitute a crystal in the color associated with your birth sign. I will describe your crystalline zodiac angel and the special strengths that can be absorbed either from the angel or the associated crystal. Small crystal angels are relatively cheap and are a very potent source of energy and protection. Some crystals are ruled by more than one zodiac sign. 

⭐ Buy a small angel for each member of the family- present, absent, and departed loved ones- adding one for each new birth or new older family members in the future. These you can keep in a circle in your crystal place. Add also any angels whose crystalline zodiacal strengths you need, even though they are not your own sign- for example, a moonstone angel for Muriel, zodiac angel of Cancer, to bring quiet sleep. Wear or carry your zodiac stone in a bag of the zodiac color at any time you need strength, protection,extra luck, or healing or want to be noticed in a positive way.

⭐ 1. ARIES, THE RAM: MARCH 21-APRIL 20

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Blood Agate, Orange Carnelian, Polished Gold Chalcopyrite, Diamond, Silver Iron Pyrites, Red Jasper, Rainbow, Gold or Silver Sheen Obsidian, Pink Rhodonite, Red Tiger’s Eye.

PLANET: Mars

ELEMENT: Fire

RULING ANGEL: Machidiel (or Malahidael), warrior angel with sparkling golden-red halo and wings.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Self-confidence, Strong Identity, Innovation, Assertiveness, Action, Courage.

COLOR: Red

⭐ 2. TAURUS, THE BULL: APRIL 21- MAY 21

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Pink Andean Opal, Green Chrysoprase , Pink Mangano Calcite, Emerald, Jade, Rainbow Moonstone, Rhodochrosite, Rose Quartz, Pink Tourmaline.

PLANET: Venus

ELEMENT: Earth

RULING ANGEL: Asmodel or Ashmodel, Angel of beauty surrounded by pink rays, creating what is of worth.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Persistence, Patience, Reliability, Loyalty, Practical Abilities, Stability, Lovers of beauty.

COLOR: Pink

⭐ 3. GEMINI, THE HEAVENLY TWINS: MAY 22- JUNE 21

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Agate, Alexandrite, Yellow Calcite, Lemon Chrysoprase, Citrine, Yellow Jasper, Labradorite, Opal, Lemon Quartz.

PLANET: Mercury

ELEMENT: Air

RULING ANGEL: Ambriel or Ambiel, the messenger and travel angel wearing colors of early morning sunlight

ANGELIC CYRSTALLINE STREGTHS: Excellent Communication Skills, Adaptability, Scientific/Technological Aptitude, Curiosity, Intelligence, Versatility. 

COLOR: Pale Yellow/ Gray

⭐4. CANCER, THE CRAB: JUNE 22- JULY 22

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: White Coral, Moonstone, Opalite, Pearl, Satin Spar, Selenite, Cloudy or Milky White Quartz, Clear Topaz.

PLANET: Moon

ELEMENT: Water

RULING ANGEL: Muriel, the silvery and pearl-robed healer angel with her magic carpet of dreams.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Sensitivity, Kindness, Imagination, Homemaker, Nurturer (especially of children), emotional security, ability to keep secrets, quiet sleep.

COLOR: Silver

⭐5. LEO, THE LION: JULY 23- AUGUST 23

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Amber, Fire Opal, Fire Quartz, Rainbow Quartz, Red Spinel, Ruby, White Sapphire, Sardonyx, Sunstone.

PLANET: Sun

ELEMENT: Fire

RULING ANGEL: Verchiel, the golden joy bringer who is surrounded by sunbeams.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Power, Courage, Generosity, Nobility, Idealism, Leadership, Protection of the weak, Ability to perform creatively in public.

COLOR: Gold

⭐6. VIRGO, THE MAIDEN: AUGUST 24- SEPTEMBER 22

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Amazonite, Green Calcite, Green Garnet, Jade, White Howlite, Moss or Tree Agate, Olivine, Peridot, Serpentine, Snow Quartz.

PLANET: Mercury

ELEMENT: Earth

RULING ANGEL: Hamaliel or Hamaiel, angel of perfection, surrounded by misty forest green.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Striving for perfection, Organizational skill, Methodical, Attention to detail, Efficiency, Healing Powers, Ability to persevere a routine but necessary task though to the end, Reliability.

COLORS: Green

⭐7. LIBRA, THE MAIDEN: SEPTEMBER 23- OCTOBER 23

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Blue lace agate, Blue chalcedony, Chrysocolla, Lapis Lazuli, White or Rainbow Opal, Blue quartz, Rubellite/red tourmaline, Blue sapphire.

PLANET: Venus

ELEMENT: Air

RULING ANGEL: Zuriel, the teacher, the pale blue angel who brings calm and reason to any situation.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Harmony, ability to see both sides of a situation, diplomacy peacemaking skills, a strong sense of justice and charisma.

COLOR: Light Blue

⭐8. SCORPIO, THE SCORPION: OCTOBER 24- NOVEMBER 22

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Black and Red coral, hematite, mahogany obsidian, malachite, black obsidian, black opal, black pearl, red spinel, titanium aura, unakite.

PLANET: Pluto

ELEMENT: Water

RULING ANGEL: Bariel, the angel of small miracles, who wears the color of sunset.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Intensity; Religious, Spiritual and Psychic awareness, ability to transform self and situations; the power to start over again or revive a stagnant situation.

COLOR: Indigo, Burgundy 

⭐9. SAGITTARIUS, THE ARCHER: NOVEMBER 23- DECEMBER 21

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Orange aragonite, Aqua aura, Azurite, Iridescent bornite or peacock ore, chrysocolla, blue goldstone, goldstone, blue howlite, clear quartz, golden topaz, turquoise.

PLANET: Jupiter

ELEMENT: Fire

RULING ANGEL: Adnachiel or Advachiel, the angel of learning and exploration with bright yellow robes.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Expansiveness, love of travel and exploration, clear vision, seeker of truth, wide perspectives, flexibility, open-mindedness, optimism, enthusiasm, creativity, especially in writing.

COLOR: Bright Yellow

⭐10. CAPRICORN, THE GOAT: DECEMBER 22- JANUARY 20

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Green Aventurine, Bronzite, Fossilized or petrified wood, Red Garnet, Onyx, Rubellite/Red Tourmaline, Smoky Quartz, Tiger’s Eye, Tourmalated Quartz, Black Tourmaline.

PLANET: Saturn

ELEMENT: Earth

RULING ANGEL: Anael or Hanael, the protector and archangel of love and fidelity, surrounded by green, silver, and roses.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Wise caution, persistence regardless of opposition, respecter of tradition, ambition, self-discipline, loyalty, fidelity, and prudence with financial affairs.

COLORS: Indigo, Brown

⭐11. AQUARIUS, THE WATER CARRIER: JANUARY 21- FEBRUARY 18

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Amethyst, Andean blue opal, Angelite, Blue Celestite, Blue Quartz, Sodalite, Sugilite, Titanium aura.

PLANET: Uranus

ELEMENT: Air

RULING ANGEL: Cambiel, tall shadowy watcher or guardian archangel, guards you day and night from your own mistakes as well as external dangers.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Idealism, Independence , humanitarianism, inventiveness, detachment from swings of emotion and prejudices, unique perspective on the world.

COLOR: Dark Blue, Purple

⭐12. PISCES, THE FISH: FEBRUARY 19- MARCH 20

GEMS AND CRYSTALS: Aquamarine, clear aragonite, golden beryl, bloodstone, girosal quartz, pink and lilac kunzite, mother of pearl, ocean or orbicular jasper, watermelon tourmaline.

PLANET: Neptune

ELEMENT: Water

RULING ANGEL: Barakiel or Barchiel, the blue and gold archangel of lightning and good luck, who has lightning flashing from his halo.

ANGELIC CRYSTALLINE STRENGTHS: Evolved intuitive powers, sympathy and empathy with others, weaver of myths, awareness of hidden factors, ability to merge with surroundings, alternative spirituality.

COLOR: Soft white, mauve.

- soft

- nice hugs

- thigh pillows??? Tiddy pillows??

Cons of chubby gf

- none

Pros of skinny gf

- fits in ur arms rly nicely

- ur hoodies are too big on her which is beautiful

Cons of skinny gf

- none

Pros of muscled gf

- abs?? Biceps??? Please???

- strong gf pick me up pls

- most likely works out a lot which is hot

Cons of muscled gf

-she can reach everything

-she can wear those gorgeous and long swooshy dresses without drowning in the fabric

-she still rocks heels, I mean, hello??? Tall girls in heels??? Yes??? PLEASE?

- can curb stomp facist easily

Cons of a tall gf

-none, you’re just cowardly

Pros of a short gf

- I can give her piggyback rides

- she short which means I can pick her up randomly

- she’s got a better angle for throat punching facist

- great at stealing my clothes and wearing em

Cons of a short gf

- none

Pros of a disabled gf

- she’s still her own independent person

- she’s intelligent, often times having some of the most profound things to say that people often ignore because they’re stupid

-she’s got a unique lifestyle that’s gonna be best for her and she’s gonna live life as much as she can as comfortably as she can

-stronger than any US marine

-hates fascist

Cons of a disabled gf

-She stims when she’s happy

-She tells you about her special interests

-She’s super knowledgeable about her favorite topics

Cons of an autistic gf

-V smart and gorgeous

-Has different names like a cool spy

-Always hilarious???

Cons of a trans gf

- not lonely.

- super cute all the time.

- makes you wonder how you lived without her before?!

Cons of having a girlfriend

Hi, Anon!

My first impression of my sub…Hmmm. Well, the first time I saw her, I was sitting in the lounge of my dormitory, watching Supernatural, because as I said before, I am a SuperWhoLock. She came in around one in the morning, and was drawing on an iPad. She stayed over on her side, and I stayed by the TV over the mantle, and I didn’t realize when she left. That happened a couple more times before she actually spoke to me, perhaps because she’s not always the most observant, and she’d just realized what I was watching.

She came over to me, and this time was maybe three in the afternoon, and said, “Oh, what season are you on?” I was a baby SuperWhoLock then, so I replied, “Season two.” She responded with, “Ah, back when the show was actually scary. It gets pretty bad after season five, you almost won’t want to watch it anymore.” And she was right, by the way, though she herself never got past season six. (I’m through season 14 and sobbing my way through 15 as of now.) That was in maybe… October. We saw each other in passing again several times, and finally in February she sat down and actually talked to me. We ended up going to a screening of the Princess Bride together on Valentine’s Day, and came back to the dorm screaming “As you wish!” and waving around inflatable swords. It was fucking great.

We survived a psychopathic roommate together (yes, the campus police had to move us out of the dorm we originally shared with K at five in the morning and it sucked). Then some shit happened with my family and I got sick. I learned to avoid early Taylor Swift, because @senseandsensesubility always left “Speak Now” songs as her alarms, and I am an Android user and had no idea how to turn off her iPad’s sound.

Perhaps the first moment I really decided “I want this one,” was when I was out to lunch with a couple of our friends, who we still talk to but are currently having trouble with. We were at a Buffalo Wild Wings, and one of them asked, “Hey, Bara, how’s your girlfriend doing? Where was she today?” Now, Val had a class, so I was with them by myself. And I realized, ‘I’d rather have her here. And…. I wouldn’t honestly mind calling her my girlfriend.”

That was maybe in… May of that same year. Same semester because we were living in that second dorm at the time. And that was in 2017, so in a few months that will have been three years.

Wow…. Three YEARS. I feel old. XD

Anyway, so May of 2017-ish. There’s my answer, anon, and since I know who this particular anon is, I know that answered your question, and thank you for asking!

But hey, @senseandsensesubility, when did YOU realize that it was me you wanted, baby?

Long answer?

I’m not sure. I’m not the best at analyzing my own emotions; we know this. But I do remember this. It was after we moved out from K, towards the end of that semester. We were sitting at the bar at Olive Garden, and you were texting that boy from Tinder, who we’ll call A. You were teasing him, trying to make it sound like you were on another date and I remember feeling a flash of jealously wash through me. It surprised me, because only one other person had ever brought that out in me (Yes, Sears, Bara). But I didn’t let myself think too much of it.

Time skip to the next year, and the end of Christmas break, when you visited me at home. I’ll never forget that moment. I’ll never forget the way my storm windows rattled because of that damn pick up truck of yours and how loud it was. (It was 2006 Dodge 2500 megacab and it is to this date the biggest I’ve ever had the privilege of riding in.) I won’t forget how it was sleeting and cold and how I, the idiot, ran outside to meet you, not caring that I wasn’t wearing shoes. Or long pants. Apparently shorts are sleet weather now, y’all. I won’t forget the way you hugged me (because Bara hugs are rare and precious if you’re not her Omega, as I am now) and how you started immediately bitching about Wichita Falls and it’s traffic.

I remember those texts messages later that year, when we were being dorks and trying to trick H into thinking we were dating because we thought it was funny. I remember how flushed I felt when you made that comment about the whip from Dodge City, and how I had better find a Hockey game for my parents to go to that weekend, otherwise they’d hear everything and it would be all my fault, wouldn’t it? I remember letting myself day dream a little, thinking that yes, it would be nice for you to put me in my place, how I would continue smarting off if it meant you would drive to see me, how much I missed you. I didn’t let the the thoughts go on long, though.

I remember last May, where I tried to tell you I loved you, but I just couldn’t get the words out and I kept sending mixed signals. But, I also remember you giving me your ring to wear and how proud I was, how wanted and safe it made me feel.

I remember the summer, those three weeks where I listened to All Too Well way too often and how that day I took a nap in your room was the best sleep I got while you were gone. I remember my parents coming to visit while you were gone and how annoyed I was, because all I wanted to do was sulk and miss you.

I remember later that summer, when C and B were over complaining about their love life and how I just sat in front of you and handed you a hairbrush and a ponytail for you to braid my hair without thinking about it. If we’re being honest, I’ve always loved the feeling of you messing with my hair.