Thoughts, Songs, And A Bit Of Art

because today he told me that he has to get a test because he’s been exposed

and I’m angry because if he Is positive I have to go in Friday for a test which is the last night for our show

aling with that he’s also exposed more of our cast because he’s been around them including 3 of our leads and two of our head technicians

im so angry and want to break up with him and scream and just arghhhh

ignoring that I’m listening to deal with it I do need new music for when I’m angry and need tI not get mad at like my friends of boyfriend...

send me your best songs and playlists (preferably alt/punk/rock)

y’all I did the dumb thing- I was hanging out with my boyfriend chilling in the back of his truck

and we we’re just kinda relaxing and I was laying on his chest...

and I reached back and was scratching his back ( kinda hard)

so some context i had neglected to cut my nails for a few weeks knowing I should’ve cause I have bad OCD and scratch my neck CONSTANTLY

so since my nails were king I tore up his back and it looked baddddff

and he gets home and his mom had been there Apparently

and he was shirtless

and not wanting her to know what happens cause this woman is a hardcore Christian and me and him are atheist he said it was from workingnout

wekl I’m in the phone as this all goes down and now worried cause I heard her yelling and then got scared and hung up lol

yall what do I do this woman already hates me for leaving hickeys on him....

Cold

Cold is the feeling you get when your passion burns out

The thing you feel when love dies

Cold is bitter and it stings

It nips at your ears and the winter

And we yearn for it in the summer

Cold is what people rely on the numb the pain

Both physical and emotional

Cold is both a sensation we feel and an emotion

We are cold to one another

Before we thaw out and warm up Then we break and freeze

Like a never-ending cycle the repeats for our entire lives

Until the day when you are finally buried

And laid to rest

In the cold dirt

The cold can be a beautiful thing

But also a deadly force

Cold could be the memories of ice cream on a hot summer day

But it could also be the feeling of the icy blade against your skin

It could be the feeling of the rare snowstorm in Texas winters

Or it could be the feeling of drowning in frigid waters

Many say they love the cold

But I find that I hate it

The cold has never done anything for me but bring negative feelings

It leaves me feeling hollow and raw

It burns my lungs and rips the breath from my throat

So to you the listener

Heed my advice

Be cautious with the cold that you love so dearly

Because one day that feeling that you think is your friend

Will turn and sink its icicle-like claws into you

And rip you the shreds

Ok so like of you haven’t figured out yet I do art (literally it’s on the top of my blogs homepage)

So I’ve been doing art more recently and just have like stockpiled bits and pieces of art so now that leaves me wondering...  Would y’all like to see bits and pieces of my art?

Like I was thinking maybe once a week I would post some little bits of art I had worked in recently to my page...(?) 

I’m not sure that why I’ve decided to leave it up to you the peoples decisions

If you wanna see my art just leave a note or message me and let me know

Here it is...

Spanish teachers exist to make our days shitty

That’s it that’s the whole tHeOrY

Or I’m just in a bitch fight with my Spanish instructor and need a passive aggressive way to let out some anger

Fuck her she’s a bitch anyways

Hey so it’s pretty self explanatory I have created a google classroom for music and people who are interested to come together wrote songs share ideas and things if the like! I’m posting the link here fell free to join and come scream at me on there! Or here works if that’s what you wanna do!

Everyones talking about how they’re having to go back to school and I don’t see what the big deal is

You take a few classes play nice with some techers and just enjoy it

Hell I remeber my freshman year was amazing it was me and my friends ruling the school and raising hell

Make the most of going back do something stupid and pass your classes and just enjoy being around others before  you get stuck doing a bunch of work you don’t even enjoy from your house

Hello and welcome to the blog! Wanted to put it out there that I'm working on a new song!!! I've got the lyrics done and currently I'm working on the instrumentals and trying to find somewhere to get studio time! As soon as I finish the song will be available on my tumblr and youtube! I know its going to be a bit before I can finish this song and get it out, but this is exciting for me because song writing is something I really love to do!!! Anyways that's all I had to say have a wonderful day and stay happy

So for those of you who are living in the United States, i’m sure you’ve heard about what has happened with George Floyd. What happened to him was awful and I understand why people are outraged and to a certain degree why people are protesting, but it has become out of hand. People need to realize that what they are doing is having cinsequneces, along with the fact that the family of George Floyd had even said that this was not what they wanted. The protesting was okay while it has been peaceful, but now people are going to news stations, as well as other places and damaging public property and harming civillians. In Atlanta there was a new station that protestors threw rocks, and other heavy objects at the window. The protestors shot BB guns at the station, even hitting one of the reporters that was inside. The situation has reached an out of hand level, and I think that everyone has forgotten one major fact-

The fact is that we are all humans. No matter what the color of your skin is, the gender you indetify with, your sexual orientation, you are still human, WE are still human. We are all human beings who make mistakes , and none of us are perfect nor will we ever be perfect. Harming innocent people is not the way to handle this situation. To put into perspective what I am sayin as well, earlier today me along with my friends got a notification from a group of about 100+ individual saying that to exact their justice they are goign to go through all of the “White neighbrhoods” and shoot every white person, car, home, ect. These people openly stated that they do not care about age and whether it be a baby, a man, a woman, an ederly, if the color of their skin is white they are going to be shot. Seeing this concerns me. I worry for my friends, I have white friends and I do not want to see them hurt just because of the color of their skin. These are people who have not done anything, yet they are being prosocuted. I may not be the oldest or wisest, but I am old enough to know that this neds to stop and people need to wake up. Wake up and aknowledge that this is the wrong way to handle things. Aknowledge that we are all still human beings and shoyld be treated as such, not by the color of our skin.