Miss Misnomer👌

it's hard to let you go

I have been out of the country for the last two months on vacation with my friend who has family who live in Australia 🇦🇺 and Sri Lanka 🇱🇰! It was so much fun and I learned so much while I was over there and it was so cool getting to experience these different cultures! Here's some of the shenanigans I got into in Brisbane, Sydney, and the surrounding areas:

Ever seen that little test tube icon at the top of your Google search? That's Search Labs.

This led me to reading about all the "experiments" they have going on and OH BOY, this is the one that got me mad enough to actually leave feedback (bear in mind I like NEVER leave comments or reviews on things so you know it's bad)

Of all the "experiments" they are launching with their Search Labs, this one is the most egregiously transparent attempt to capitalize on the human brain's superiority over a computer's.

I see what they are doing.

"Look at these auto generated images and try your best to tell us what you think the original prompt is! Teehee, isn't this a fun test? Don't you want to have fun?? Play our game, uwu".

This is about as blatant as you can get: they want to train their Ai to get better at generating its frankly often garbage results by using real people to tell it how it could have done better.

My guess as to why Google is even doing this: ◽️Let’s say you use of one of Google's programs to generate an image based on your own personal written prompt (I know YOU wouldn't, fair tumblr user, but stay with me here)

◽️You are subsequently frustrated at the slop Google generated for you, and select a button that says something along the lines of "I am not satisfied with this result".

◽️This auto-triggers something on Google's end, which I assume captures this response along with the image it is attached to.

◽️Now, they can put that picture in front of thousands of unwitting people who can tell Google EXACTLY what "prompt" they associate with that image instead. Exactly the words that it SHOULD be tagged with.

These pieces of ai "art" are NOT good, let me make that clear. What financial benefit would Google have to present a panel of testers with perfectly generated images? To make this game in the first place? The only way ai can advance is when humans tell it what it did wrong. Because the computer doesn't fucking know what a raven vs a writing-desk is. It needs us to give it the words to think. Poor baby gets confused when we are vague. :(

All this under the guise of a cutesy little "test". A "game".

This is not fun, and it is extremely scummy. Do better Google. Be better. I'm attaching some screenshots of the first "level" so you too can enjoy the art of prompting!!! (she says with so much dry sarcasm the Deserts of Arrakis spontaneously turn into an ocean)

I will sit politely behind you and make conversation when we hit the rest stop, or if you want I can also not say a dang thing the entire time instead. I can be a yapper or a sit-in-silencer. Topics I am well versed in include Elden Ring lore, movie-making behind the scenes, half-remembered biology facts, all the lyrics to dad-rock songs, and so much more! Enjoy the thrill of having a ride-along to all your motorcycling adventures!

But please don't expect me to know anything about motors or mechanical bits or motorcycle culture in general: remember, think of me as an accessory! Something nice you sit on your back seat with a taste for adrenaline and no opinions on Harleys vs Ducatis vs...idk what else there is out there lmao

I just. Want to go. So fast. 🏍💨💨💨

gently sets down some turtles onto your dash before hobbling away to climb back into my silly little hole

original template made by @miniyunart, I just cut it up because I wanted to have a larger area to draw in. Original template under the cut in case you also want to play :3

trying to get back into the swing of it, so here's some of my doodles just practicing different expressions with rando faces ✏️

(°▽°) ah geez, been on this website for over ten years and still had no idea asks wind up in a different spot than normal notifications. This was submitted months ago and I only found out because I was doing edits to my account settings whoopsie-doodle (๑-﹏-๑)

Thank you so much kind stranger for the concern, it was honestly so sweet to see when I woke up today!! To be honest, it's been. Odd. I am both doing well and also not great at the same time. ( •̀⤙•́ )

I quit my job about six months ago (for good reasons, very amicable split), then I traveled for two months, and I have been doing a bunch of irl stuff that is very fun! Been spending more time with my nieces than ever before. I've taken up LARPing monthly, I went skiing for the first time in five years, I'm learning how to sew with my sister. I've got plans to do even more traveling this year in the summer which I am very excited for ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧

I am at the point where I have more free time than I have had in decades. But I've also created less art now than I did while I was employed. It makes no sense. I'd squeeze every last hour out of the day to capitalize on drawing time, but now that I have all the time in the world, I haven't drawn anything. It's incredibly frustrating, because I feel like I'm doing this to myself for no good reason. (¬_¬") Every time I think to go and sit at my tablet to draw, this big heavy force stops me from doing that.

I'm supposed to be looking for contract jobs right now to keep myself afloat until I get another full-time job in the fall, and I think that's affecting my creativity. Every time I want to create something for myself, a little voice in my mind says "but this time could be spent getting work instead, why aren't you working on your portfolio?? are you this irresponsible?? who'd even want to look at your stupid little doodle anyways??" And I lose any spark I had, and end up doing neither instead. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻ ughhhhuhhh

The most annoying thing about it all is that I know it's all self-imposed. I'm doing this to myself, holding these ridiculous standards. No one else is telling me these things. It's harder to lose that grindset mindset than I thought. But I'm trying to get better about giving myself the permission to just play around and have fun during this time.

I successfully got diagnosed for ADHD and have finally landed on a medication that I think will really help with the decision paralysis and my focus. ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ I'm also starting therapy as well to work through some of my self-worth issues that I've never properly confronted before.

Just ya know, trying to do some soul-searching and find the kindness to let myself be the real me. Sappy shit like that (〜￣▽￣)〜

Anywho, wow, sorry, this sort of turned into a vent-post/diary entry, but one of the things I'm trying to be better about is telling people in my life how I'm doing and being more vulnerable. Reaching out to start a conversation. Even if it's kinda cringe. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I've got a small action plan to work on, and I think that's going to help. I'm also thinking of trying out art commissions as well! I feel like that'd be good for me, give me an incentive to stretch those art muscles!! 💪(ˋᵕˊ💪) Because honestly nothing inspires me more than making art for people that will really appreciate it! That's one of the things I love the most about making fanart!

Also deadlines and contracts are really good for me (need that accountability in order to get shit done ehh heh heh). (¯ ∇ ¯٥) so idk, look out for that I guess!! If any of y'all who are still reading this would be interested, I'm working on putting together a rate sheet 👉👈(¯ω ¯๑)

All that to say, thanks for asking anon! I don't know who you are behind that ~☆.𖥔 ݁ ˖*☆𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒊𝒄𝒐𝒏☆*.𖥔 ݁ ˖☆~ but I'm sure I also got a lot of joy out of interacting with you too!!!

Ending this on a possitive note! Mwah mwah, a thousand kisses for all of you!!! (˵˘ ³˘˵) ᯓ💋💋💋

Know that tumblr is literally the only platform I like these days and it's because of all you wonderful freaks!!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝💖