Missbones2004

I started with the €d when I was little, about 8 years old. My mother told me something I'll never forget: "No one will love you if you're not thin." It's worth clarifying that she always was an almond mom. The phrase deeply affected me, and from then on I began to struggle with my weight.

I moved in with my grandmother when I was 16, and there I suffered a very severe episode of depression where I was binge eating all the time I reached my highest weight of 85kg, that's when I said "enough!", I decided to go all in and cut my calories losing 30kg in 3 months, unfortunately I attracted a lot of attention and they decided to hospitalize me.

I am now taking control of my life again after gaining 70kg for recovery.

I started off perfectly! But today I acted like a fool, ate half a sandwich, a piece of bread, and Chinese food. I have to learn to say no to my family!

Height: 158cm. Age: 22 years

Sw: 85kg / 187lb

Cw: 65.2kg / 143 lb

Gw1: 60kg / 132 lb

Gw2: 55kg / 121 lb

Gw3: 50kg / 110 lb

Gw4: 42kg / 92 lb

Gw5: 35kg / 77 lb

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I'm good with discipline but I don't know what happened to me today, I'll take a laxative and make up for it tomorrow.

(Sorry if my English isn't good, I'm a Spanish speaker and I'm doing my best.

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I don't know the exact calorie count, but I think it's around 200 based on the portion size. It tasted pretty good, but I started feeling nauseous after finishing it.

Ah! I also weighed myself again today, since last Friday I started at 68kg/149lb, today and 65.2kg/143lb

The soup

But I'm starting to feel physically unwell; I've had some tachycardia, and my headache is getting worse. My family is having dinner across from me, and they're only making things worse.

Tomorrow I have to go bake at my mother's boss's house (I'm a pastry chef so I bake for her). The problem is that when I go to her house it's difficult for me to refuse the food since the three of us sat at the same table to eat.

I really hope I can get out of this dilemma so I can at least finish my fast at 9:40 pm.

My muse, my th!n$po

On Friday my mother will stay home all day, she will cook and possibly make me eat something.

I will try to avoid it, but if I can't, then I will compensate.

I'm fasting right now, and I plan to continue fasting until Friday. Wish me luck!

(English is not my first language so I apologize if it is not clear)