My fears keep me warm

my advice for women is eat more, shave less, and do whatever the fuck you want

can’t talk right now. im partaking in the social ritual of correct micro facial expressions

happy disability pride month to mean cripples, nasty addicts, people with down syndrome who arent nice and talk constant shit, wheelchair users that WILL run you over, autists that dont care and arent about to pretend to, people who lie to their psychiatrists, people that sit on the floor in public places with no benches, amputees that lie profusely about "what happened"; to the "noncompliant", the "drug seeking", the "mean", the "difficult" and the "undeserving", and so on and so forth, i love us all and we deserve the world actually mwah mwah

implying the r slur is anything like reclaiming faggot or dyke implies there's some sort of community and comfort and care behind the social group "retard" is being applied to. which there isn't, because disabled people haven't ever had the ability to create communities for themselves let alone archive or take down their own history and experiences. that is happening now, this is the first time that has ever been allowed to happen. there is no comfort when another disabled person calls me it, there is lateral ableism. that's it. they're just weaponizing our oppressors' words against me in a way that gains them power. that's not reclamation. that's just slur slinging.

it’s a beautiful day to check out a book from the library

its a beautiful day to return a book to the library unread after it auto renews 3 times

The library says thank you for boosting our circulation stats and the book will still be here later if you want it another time <3

Oh what an unlovable thing I've become.

losing the same person over and over again really fucks with your mental health.

no matter what, i constantly get excluded, maybe i should just give up on trying to be worth anything to people

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it

i am excessive when i love someone and i am cruel when i hate someone. i want to be gentle. i don't want to be this way.

Or just ignore me I guess, that doesn't hurt at all...

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

they did btw

I’ve lost so much of myself in other people I’m not sure what’s left

i can’t and shouldn’t have relationships, ever