My fears keep me warm

Oh what an unlovable thing I've become.

losing the same person over and over again really fucks with your mental health.

no matter what, i constantly get excluded, maybe i should just give up on trying to be worth anything to people

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it

i am excessive when i love someone and i am cruel when i hate someone. i want to be gentle. i don't want to be this way.

Or just ignore me I guess, that doesn't hurt at all...

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

they did btw

I’ve lost so much of myself in other people I’m not sure what’s left

i can’t and shouldn’t have relationships, ever

i hate everyone and i wish i never made any connections to anyone

No no no no no, you don't understand. I can't keep going on like this. It's draining me and I can't take it anymore. No more, please.

I'm homesick for arms that don't even want to hold me.

they will replace me so easily and never remember who i even was

„but you survived“ but i didn’t want to lol. i wasn’t supposed to. i hate that i did. i’m angry that i did. i want the pain to go away so badly.