Chalice* (Chal, Alice, Al, Lice) + in 20s^ + He/She or Hy/hym + white(mixed)
Keyblade holder and patron saint of Luna Game. Real life fairy. Mage of Hope.
Artist + writer who happens to be an ICT survivor and an unschool drop out, I survived isolation and I'm making it everyone else's problem. I have DID and am learning to be more open/expressive about my alters. They all have sideblogs but also post here. I grew up on kinblr and had a family that believed I was an earth angel + changling so I've got that kin slop in me. Even after everything, I'm still Sollux Captor. I selfship, I have a billion ocs that I love to talk about, and I am very open about my own personal fetishes, this blog is 18+!
My main special interest has been homestuck since 2011, and FNAF since 2014. But I'm also very into art history, marketing/advertisement, disability history and internet horror.
I post a lot about CSA, rape, incest, antisemetism, physical abuse, emotional abuse, and neglect, all mostly untagged. i cannot tag it, this is my diary. I keep a very small amount of followers on this account. if that might trigger you, please either move on or block this account, and maybe check out my other less personal ones!
Read my "fan"adventure!!! @inflatablehome
Art acc @sodachalice
Old art archive: @toontowncreepypasta
AVA/AVM acc: @rocketco
Beforus acc: @helpsman
Danganronpa v3 acc: @newdanganronpaversionthree
Trolls selfship acc: @teacuptroll
My nsfw acc: @liquidvessel
"Kin mems" acc: @pieceofpleastic
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*I use a lot of different names and am still trying to figure out if I want to change this or not. I also go by: Jake, Cain, Starling, Callix, Roxas, Gamble, and various others... this may be subject to change!
This is my tentative kinlist/alter list. While this isn't all of my alters, it's all of the ones I can clearly and significantly identify from eachother. My kinlists are less about the actual character and moreso about the shared tropes and behaviors and thematic connections in between each character categorized together. My brain functions better with color/theme association than it does personification and that's how I'm able to identify things. I like it when I'm treated like my kins, though of course I am always a real person and that shouldn't be compromised.
My main kins (non DID related) can be considered: Stain HL2VRAI, All four of the Captors from homestuck, Orange from AVA, Michael Afton, Jake English, Ouma Kokichi, Jataro Kemuri, Aranea Serket, Vanessa Afton, Frankie KOG, Jude Harley, Kevin WTNV, Derpy, Kankri Vantas, Roxas, Oswald the lucky rabbit and Roger Rabbit.
I'm very strongly "therian" with: Toys and the concept of mascots as a whole, Fairies, Hyrax, Anteaters (Silky anteaters and Tamanduas specifically), Raccoon, Koalas, Red panda, Zebra/Okepai, Tapir, ladybugs, butterflies and most forms of rodents.
I am physically disabled and chronically ill, I experience a lot of chronic pain and it's something I often post about. Recently I have had most of my teeth removed due to neglect and infection from when I was growing up, and am currently in the process of getting dentures. I currently live in poverty and am unable to work, I complain about that a lot. I have a head injury from my childhood that frequently affects my language abilities.
I have a lot of OCs that I love to talk about, though the oc posting is done both here and on my art account. I love to answer asks about my ocs and my alters and my kins, so if you have a question or are interested please feel free to ask!
While not all of my alters want to directly share there blogs on the pinned directly, I figured i'd make a section for those who do.
Games: Portal, Mothered(2021), Kingdom hearts, Guilty Gear, Animal Crossing, Kirby, Magicians Quest, Webkinz, most .exe games, Endless Forest, The Path, Cooking Mama, Danganronpa (specifically V3), Yume nikki, Ib, Cookie run
Movies/Shows: Animator VS Animation, Knights of Guinevere, Trolls (dreamworks), Paprika, Perfect Blue, Invader Zim, Us 2019, Eckva, Mirror Mask, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Fosters home for imaginary friends, Chowder,
Various other things: HLVRAI, Chainsaw man, Red valley podcast, Welcome to nightvale, Homestuck, Fire punch, Houseki no kuni, Tamagotchi,
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You inspired me to not only be more proud of liking the media I do and use the characters as my toys to play with for the sake of healing and exploring my own head
I'm poor with words right now, so this is the best I can put it, but thank you so much
sniff.... wahh. im so glad to hear it. its genuinely one of the best coping mechanisms i've been able to find and im glad me using it has been able to help you in some way
jury i think is my biggest manifestation of that feeling. i often feel like i had my soul removed and put back in, except it couldn't like. root properly in my body. its rattling around in there without any of the connections. thats very close to how jurys actual situation is. a lot of his issues come from his absolute refusal to engage with his own body or own life around him in any meaningful way, and then gets angry when his life fucking sucks. except he blames other people he doesn't know hes doing this.
i get angry and angry cry over peoples stupid nostalgia-core art thats like i wanna be a kiddd before the internettt before the world was overtaken by machiiineeesss. okay well i was in an radiation tank+blanket for weeks after being born so i didnt like exactly get that luxury.
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i feel like because i was forced to get clean due to medical issues i never learned how to stop living like an addict. i just dont get the joy of using substances anymore
i feel like the older i get the more i recognize what dissociation is robbing me of and also the more i recognize that i dont know how to fix it because fixing it seems so unpleasant and painful and undoable
i literally dont ever want to do anything. nothing is enjoyable because to enjoy something means to be present in that moment and i absolutely can't and i refuse to. i literally can't. i hate being in my body. moving means feeling my body, feeling how light and sound enters it, it means understanding that i am in this for the rest of my life and its going to feel like this for the rest of my life. that no matter what i do or how happy the activity im doing is making me i wont enjoy it because its REQUIRED that i have to be present in my body for it to matter. everything is just like numb unpleasantries. someone could pet my back to make me feel better and all it does is force me back into a body i'm trying to desperately get away from. people make this shit sound so easy like if you start hrt it fixes everything or if you let your alters breath itll go away but it doesnt because im disabled. there isnt a "fix" to this its just like. thats what it is. thats what i feel like im stuck being.
i feel like the older i get the more i recognize what dissociation is robbing me of and also the more i recognize that i dont know how to fix it because fixing it seems so unpleasant and painful and undoable
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