Chalice* (Chal, Alice, Al, Lice) + in 20s^ + He/She or Hy/hym + white(mixed)
Keyblade holder and patron saint of Luna Game. Real life fairy. Mage of Hope.
Artist + writer who happens to be an ICT survivor and an unschool drop out, I survived isolation and I'm making it everyone else's problem. I have DID and am learning to be more open/expressive about my alters. They all have sideblogs but also post here. I grew up on kinblr and had a family that believed I was an earth angel + changling so I've got that kin slop in me. Even after everything, I'm still Sollux Captor. I selfship, I have a billion ocs that I love to talk about, and I am very open about my own personal fetishes, this blog is 18+!
My main special interest has been homestuck since 2011, and FNAF since 2014. But I'm also very into art history, marketing/advertisement, disability history and internet horror.
I post a lot about CSA, rape, incest, antisemetism, physical abuse, emotional abuse, and neglect, all mostly untagged. i cannot tag it, this is my diary. I keep a very small amount of followers on this account. if that might trigger you, please either move on or block this account, and maybe check out my other less personal ones!
Read my "fan"adventure!!! @inflatablehome
Art acc @sodachalice
Old art archive: @toontowncreepypasta
AVA/AVM acc: @rocketco
Beforus acc: @helpsman
Danganronpa v3 acc: @newdanganronpaversionthree
Trolls selfship acc: @teacuptroll
My nsfw acc: @liquidvessel
"Kin mems" acc: @pieceofpleastic
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*I use a lot of different names and am still trying to figure out if I want to change this or not. I also go by: Jake, Cain, Starling, Callix, Roxas, Gamble, and various others... this may be subject to change!
This is my tentative kinlist/alter list. While this isn't all of my alters, it's all of the ones I can clearly and significantly identify from eachother. My kinlists are less about the actual character and moreso about the shared tropes and behaviors and thematic connections in between each character categorized together. My brain functions better with color/theme association than it does personification and that's how I'm able to identify things. I like it when I'm treated like my kins, though of course I am always a real person and that shouldn't be compromised.
My main kins (non DID related) can be considered: Stain HL2VRAI, All four of the Captors from homestuck, Orange from AVA, Michael Afton, Jake English, Ouma Kokichi, Jataro Kemuri, Aranea Serket, Vanessa Afton, Frankie KOG, Jude Harley, Kevin WTNV, Derpy, Kankri Vantas, Roxas, Oswald the lucky rabbit and Roger Rabbit.
I'm very strongly "therian" with: Toys and the concept of mascots as a whole, Fairies, Hyrax, Anteaters (Silky anteaters and Tamanduas specifically), Raccoon, Koalas, Red panda, Zebra/Okepai, Tapir, ladybugs, butterflies and most forms of rodents.
I am physically disabled and chronically ill, I experience a lot of chronic pain and it's something I often post about. Recently I have had most of my teeth removed due to neglect and infection from when I was growing up, and am currently in the process of getting dentures. I currently live in poverty and am unable to work, I complain about that a lot. I have a head injury from my childhood that frequently affects my language abilities.
I have a lot of OCs that I love to talk about, though the oc posting is done both here and on my art account. I love to answer asks about my ocs and my alters and my kins, so if you have a question or are interested please feel free to ask!
While not all of my alters want to directly share there blogs on the pinned directly, I figured i'd make a section for those who do.
Games: Portal, Mothered(2021), Kingdom hearts, Guilty Gear, Animal Crossing, Kirby, Magicians Quest, Webkinz, most .exe games, Endless Forest, The Path, Cooking Mama, Danganronpa (specifically V3), Yume nikki, Ib, Cookie run
Movies/Shows: Animator VS Animation, Knights of Guinevere, Trolls (dreamworks), Paprika, Perfect Blue, Invader Zim, Us 2019, Eckva, Mirror Mask, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Fosters home for imaginary friends, Chowder,
Various other things: HLVRAI, Chainsaw man, Red valley podcast, Welcome to nightvale, Homestuck, Fire punch, Houseki no kuni, Tamagotchi,
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see the thing is tumblr thinks oppression = a "valid reason" to suffer. if you are oppressed, you are Allowed to be angry, Allowed to be upset at your bad life, you are Allowed to be hateful and spiteful and in pain. so every form of oppression you face is an "allowance" of bad or unwell or painful behaviors. if you are disabled, you are allowed to suffer about being disabled. if you are a person of color, you are allowed to suffer about being a person of color. if you are trans, you are allowed to suffer about being trans. but because they also view it as an "allowance" they also view themselves as people who have the right to take that allowance away. you're sad you're transgender? well you SHOULD feel lucky that you're just nonbinary, that you don't HAVE to transition. you're sad you're autistic? well you should suck it up, a bunch of people are autistic and they DON'T act like this and they DON'T hurt other people, so what gives you the right to? and on the inverse, people are constantly trying to come up with reasons on how to justify their NEED for the "allowance" if they don't feel like they're being given enough.
trans men make up transandrophobia to try and gain "allowance" to talk about their experiences of transphobia at the expense of devaluing trans womens experiences. they feel like they need to "take back" allowance they feel like has been taken from them in the first place. autistic people attempt to come up with reasons why they're actually MORE disabled than people think, saying things like glasses or headphones are comparable to "mobility aids" so they feel like they are "allowed" to express anguish about needing them. zionist jews make up reasons why their pain should be valued more than the palestinians they are doing a genocide against, trying to take back "allowance" to be upset about the hatred of jews. all these things come at the expense of trans women, physically disabled people and palestinians. this is not a new concept, nor is it one thats unique to tumblr. it's a staple of reactionary belief systems. a necessity of them. this is why white men say "well does a homeless man have white privilege?" because they believe that the privilege of whiteness robs them of the "allowance" to be open about the pain of homelessness.
ok. my point was not about that though my point is that a lot of people on tumblr will view someone they perceive to have the same amount of "allowance" to be hurt as they do being a LOT LOUDER about the pain they're in, and they get so unbelievably snarky and smarmy about it. an autistic person will see a different autistic person having a melt down on tumblr and instead of sympathizing will make an angry violent wojack about hoiw they're stupid and useless for being upset about such a "pointless thing" because they refuse to believe that MAYBE something in that persons life is making it harder for them to regulate their emotions. OR, OFTEN, WHICH IS MORE COMMON: the thing the autistic person having a melt down about DOES SUCK and the person making the wojack is actually deeply hurt by it too and is actively repressing their hurt because they don't believe they have the "allowance" to be open about it, and instead are taking out that hurt ON the people loud about it. i'm sorry but i find it gross. i find it really really really reactionary and it isn't subtle to me when it's happening. i think this websites gross.
mikes have more fanart than jevil because theres three of them which means they can have three way sex which everyone wants where as jevils divorced and lives in a single bedroom apartment that he doesnt ever leave and if he's not screaming hes sleeping thats not fun or fuckable.
well how come the mikes haven't fucked him yet. hey hold on. theres three of them and one of him. what they're GREEDY about sex now all of a sudden? go make a bald divorced man happy guys come on.
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you can tell that people on tumblr were sent to CBT with the way they'll actively look you in the face and go "have you considered everythings your own fault yet?"
every tumblr post about severe mental health ends with "quit torturing yourself and go do something fun or talk to a friend" and its like oh yeah my bad i forgot i can just fucking do that lemme just call up uhhhh uhhhhhhh (opens phone and my only contacts are my family) uhhhhhhhhhhhh well why dont i just go outside and do something fun like uhhhhhhhhhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhh (looks at my cane) (remembers most places in portland arent accessable in hopes of scaring away homeless people) (remembers that i have no assistance) (remembers i have no money which is required for simple things like bathrooms in portland) (remembers people will actively threaten you or sexually harrass you if you are visibly disabled) uhmmmm..............
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mikes have more fanart than jevil because theres three of them which means they can have three way sex which everyone wants where as jevils divorced and lives in a single bedroom apartment that he doesnt ever leave and if he's not screaming hes sleeping thats not fun or fuckable.
id like to think miles was more optimistic and organized when he was younger but after he got fired from his previous agency he js started to not gaf anymore
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