kaelen sighed, nodding her head. it didn't matter how much he said that their daughter didn't hate her or that it wasn't her fault. she was sure she was going to carry that guilt for the rest of her life, but at least she was getting to live now and could feel it and still get to know her daughter and be there for zash once again. "you lived a whole life without me, zash. i think i'll always feel like it's my fault for not being there for it. we were supposed to grow old together. maybe have another kid or something.. i just.. okay no, i can't keep focusing on that. i need to focus on here and now. maybe meeting our daughter and getting to know the person that she is and getting to know the person that you are."
Zash couldn't imagine what it felt like for her. It was hard enough for him. But for her? Everything had fully changed. "The world changed a lot. After the order, things got worse and worse." He shook his head. "I agree we should not focus on what is ahead and not what is in the past." He wanted that life that she spoke about. If it was going to be that way, if he wanted it that way he needed to tell her what he become. What he had to do in order to survive. "I would like that. A lot has changed. In order to survive. I had to become someone I thought I'd never be. In a world where everyone wanted me dead." She might hate him but he had to tell her.
















