STEPHANIE

chillin but also seconds away from bursting into tears

a light within me was stamped out but im chill

i’ve fought wars to be this kind

love will feel (and maybe even be) so much more accessible when you stop thinking of it as this grand thing you have to be deserving of. it’s small, it’s in short moments, it’s in quick gestures, it’s in normal everyday things. when you think of it as something you have to discover or catch or deserve, you’ll miss how alive it already is all around you.

hi can i come over and immediately fall asleep

absolutely hate it when I wake up tired like what the fuck did I lie unconscious for

when they say “you’re hot” but kafka said “you’re the knife I turn inside myself” like do better

Guys I don’t think I want the body to keep the score anymore

cracking open a lukewarm one with the nobody

cracking open a boiling one with the felt absence of people who will never be there again

in retrospect I should have been a lot meaner to that man.

i ❤️ not learning my lesson

hfggvghjccgjghggfhvhhhhjhjfh goodnight, gorgeous. the tortures resume bright and early tomorrow

fascinating how grief makes you miss people who suck