Brain Dumpster

hey, why did he say this?

A literal 5 year old Franny: i’m in uncle ian’s lap

Being manic of cause makes him act differently, but it's not in a way that feels like they just replaced him with a 'crazy person'. When Ian is displaying symptoms very clearly like the scene where he puts a knife to kenyattas neck, we can feel that the thought process is still distinctly Ian. He sees that mandy is unsafe and acts on instinct to protect her. We get to see Ian being impulsive and more violent in a way that, to me, feels so much more realistic than making him get in a bar fight or something.

When he forces mickey to come out, it doesn't feel out of place. His episode was triggered by his feelings around mickey, and now, without the clear thinking of his regulated self, he does whatever he can to help him.

“...to love and to cherish you...

...til' death do us part...”

The flicker of the eyes gets to me. He had been maintaining eye contact with Ian all this time, until the mention of the word death, like the sound of the word alone is enough of a threat that he needs to deflect to find comfort...

So many times this man thought his life might've ended because of the consequences of being with that other man before him... The one looking back at him during their vows...

That unfortunate situation could've happened before those vows could EVER even BE a reality... And it kills me. These vows were as real as they could ever get. I'm glad the show did not make them write their own vows... because as traditional as they may sound, not only is this what he wanted, it just makes it more real... I don't know how to explain.

They don't need fancy prophecies of their love, adorned words to be spoken in front of everyone. They don't need them to know how arduous it was for them to be together through personalized vows.

This is all they needed... and this is why it's so much more emotional. It's not death itself that scares him, dying... passing... Hell, he most likely believed for it to be the best way to go at low points.

It's the fact that it's capable of robbing him of the best thing that ever happened to him, his person, his husband. His lover. His best friend. His soulmate.