Jan 15, 2019
As it turns out, mental illness is back on in full swing and maybe worse than before.
Fun times.
I just cried my eyes out at a buzzfeed video which wasn't even sad. I also cried on public transport again right after work even though I told myself I wouldn't do that any more. And the crying made me so cold that I was physically shaking and couldn't warm up the entire journey home. Even when I got home and sat on my radiator, I still couldn't get warm.
I'm on xanax now to help me relax and sleep but so far it just makes me into a zombie in the mornings (I take the lowest dose before bed). I want to get better so much. I really don't want to be like this any more.
