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💚💚💚 really lovely words thank you… i didn’t articulate that in the best way but i more meant physically transitioning as the step i’m really scared of but also kind of need desperately. basically all of my close social circle knows i’m not cis and i’ve almost entirely left behind my birth name for an androgynous one (although not what i eventually want to end up with i think) so i feel very privileged. and i’ve known/accepted that i’m trans for… jesus christ over a decade now. but kind of paradoxically, the more i “socially” transition the worse my dysphoria gets and the more i really really really want to get on hormones. i know it’ll be there for me later but i’m so scared to take the first step but also so scared to wait. ugh. if only everything were cut and dry