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college fucking sucks the classes are hard and i have no friends. i stare intensely into my reflection’s eyes when brushing my teeth in the communal bathroom. i’ve been brushing harder and longer, my gums start to hurt. breakfast isn’t a thing anymore, unless it’s thursday, which i don’t mine since i always appreciate being able to sleep in. i eat in my dorm for nearly every meal. i order my food ahead of time so i can wait in the comfort of my room instead of the dining halls. every night, i walk out of my dorm building to throw away food containers into the dumpster. it makes me feel pathetic, i don’t like people knowing i have nobody to eat with. im beginning to talk to people in my classes. small remarks, nothing of note. within the span of a month, i’ve had only a shot of vodka offered by my drunk roommate. the second i go home im buying cigarettes. nights are pretty here, the stars are out.

this is a nightmare