Mia Joy

I cut across the middle of the tube, and there is so much more left in there that wasn't squeezing out! So guess it'll be another month or so until I can finish that off. Only use it once a week as my skin is quite sensitive. But I might try upping it to twice a week - Sundays and Wednesdays maybe?

I've also nearly finished all my face masks!! I have one under eye mask left to use. 🎉

Then I can make a start on all of my day and night moisturisers I have left 🤣

I still have foot masks left to use up, but I'm not entirely sure if they have expired? I might try one at the weekend. Not gunna lie, I've had some of those for years.... lol.

Feels good to be chipping away at these products. I've realised I don't need much, just the basics for an everyday routine.

I do really want to be more minimal in lifestyle. Next is tackling my wardrobe. I have so many clothes in there that don't fit me anymore. I'm going to keep them but store them elsewhere other than the wardrobe. One day I'll be able to fit into them again!!

Found out my Aunt had a stroke, she is out of hospital now and recovering at home but it still shocked and upset me. She is such a strong character and the only direct relative I have left. I hope she gets back to herself, this is the second TIA stroke she has had. I think the last time was maybe 4 years ago. I admire her so much, a tenacious lady full of spirit.

Anyway. It's made me realise I need to slow down and really look after myself. I'm chronically inflamed and in fight or flight mode. So, I am going to make some changes, doing more things for myself and getting into a better routine.

Went for a lovely golden hour walk tonight to process my feelings and enjoy being in nature.

The heat today was still bad but not as bad as yesterday thankfully.

Went out for dinner with a friend, sat in the beer garden and afterwards did some quick shopping on the way home. F is almost home, he was on late shift tonight.

I was annoyed yesterday as we had said about going to the pub for a date night. But F left it so late and decided to finish painting. 😕 so by the time it was finished, there was no point going to the pub.

Soooo, he said we'll go tonight instead. Anything to not be in a hot house lol. He wants to make it up to me. So he should haha.

Made it through the week guys!! Logged off and making dinner!!

It's so hot, but gotta make dinner with the bits we have in the fridge because gotta save that money. Meatballs and pasta coming right up!!

Global warming? This must be a sign we need to change as a population.

It's mega uncomfortable in this weather. No one is sleeping at night. Everyone is tetchy and fighting with one another at work.

The only good thing is the laundry is drying super fast outside 😆🥵

I'm ready for day to be over so we can go to the pub this evening.

To be honest I'd rather have done actual work.

I couldn't not show my distain, I was sighing a lot but also it was hella hot and humid in that meeting room, and I came away with a headache.

We then went out as a team afterwards for dinner and drinks. Was nice to begin with, but then the facilitator from the team session joined us, and it turned into an extraverts paradise. Like I was so over it. I don't care about their life story, I don't. Honestly it felt like a waste of time. So drained now. I hate people who take over conversations and dominate everything!!

Need to eat something spicy to get over this.

Tomorrow, I have to go back into the office again, for yet another office-wide team building thing this time. I dont want to. Seriously, I'm burnt out from today. Help me.

Not sure if SD enjoyed. It was hard to get any conversation going. If I hasn't organised things, I doubt they would have done anything for their dad which is sad.

I spent some time in the garden, looking at photos from my Dad's memorial. It brought back so many memories of the past, and I've had a good cry. It helps sometimes. Miss my parents and the 'good days'. Everyone smiling in photos, it's lovely. But I know they all probably suffered from the same things we do now.

I've just realised I've not drank any water this morning... brb.

We are going to a village event this afternoon. There should be stalls, music and food. So will check it out for as long as we can survive the heat.

In this heat.... I'm dripping 🥵

But feel better for having a calm environment. Food shop is being delivered in an hour so glad I took the chance clean all the fridge shelves while it was mostly empty.

Its so hot upstairs, I think we will suffer overnight....operation try to make the house as cool as possible begins when the sun goes down 🤣

I'm not overly looking forward to this weekend, but I have to remember to enjoy what I can. At least cleaning up has made me feel more in control.

Chicken burgers are on the menu tonight 😋

The weather is gorgeous, blue skies, and going to be 30 degrees today 🌞

Gunna get some washing on after my next call. So many meetings today. I could have gone in to the office today, but I'll be honest, I've been so tired lol. Needed that extra hour of sleep this morning.

It's probably poor diet, lack of exercise and lack of sleep. But I'm finding it all so hard to balance at the moment. The house needs deep cleaning, I need to sort out a boiler service and other niggly things. I want to book a week away for us all during the school holidays this summer. But my brain just can't focus after a long day at work. I need to zone out!!!

Its fathers day coming up this weekend, so want to get something nice for F. I know SD is old enough now to get a present by themselves but I don't know if they even realise it's on Sunday lol. I'll have a look tonight and tomorrow to get a couple of bits for him just in case.

I've started doing some batch cooking. Beef chuck with red wine, onions and mushrooms in the slow cooker.

I've also made myself a pizza from scratch, using the Greek yoghurt method. So delicious. Cooked the pork mince in a bbq sauce for the topping, along with the extra mushrooms, onions and of course 🧀.

The massage I had today was amazing. She was super firm and it now aches everywhere but it was so worth it. I feel lighter in myself and detoxified. ✨️

Had a strange comment from the friend I was with today. We were talking about her young family and how it is hard but will get better as her little ones get older. Then she suddenly said, "it's difficult for everyone who has kids... but then it must be difficult for you since you don't have children"

I was like wtf. Why do you assume I'm not happy with my life right now?! Why is my life difficult because i dont have my own kids? I dont get that at all. I've come home and I'm actually so glad I can have an afternoon to myself, whereas that friend had to dash off in a stress to tend to her family, and I understand that but don't assume that I'm not happy coming home to a quiet empty house where I can do what i want when I want !

Yes, I've been on the fence about having kids. But the more I think about it, in our situation financially, in a step family dynamic and with the state of the world, I'm not sure I want to take on the responsibility of raising a child.

I can sit around before I start work or before my first meeting of the day and use them up. I was struggling to use them at nighttime because they take ages to absorb, and I hate laying on my pillow with a sticky face. If I have time, aka an early night by myself, then it works, but if it's BAU, I just don't have the time before sleeping lol. 😴