Meylicious

I just have to get this off of my soul I have been in a relationship for one and a half year, but I had to end it last October because he was making me mentally ill, he was beating me up and made me feel real bad about myself. I had to chance for him and he always told me he can not chance because he is a human?? I mean I know I'm a robot but well you know what I mean? But okay that wasn't the point of this post We had some hard time being friendly to each other But yesterday he was starting to write again And since we have same friends we are trying And it was okay for the beginning But than this stupid smart was is telling me how fat he was in our relationship and now he lost sooooo much weight and he is now so sporty Let me tell you something about him He was a 60kg little guy who drove home who was going jogging and just was fit He told me to look at his Instagram profile so I get motivation to go to the gym And you know?? He was thin and now he is more thin WOW fucker???? It's not a motivation?? He don't know how shitty it is to be fat and you have to start from ducking zero He and a other very thin friend of mine don't understand how it is when you can't even run 2 minutes without everything hurting They don't know that other people have a limit from maybe 20? Crunches They don't know that we have to push that fucking more?? The limit is 10 on good days I'm fucking sorry I wasn't raised to do sports or was born with genes who make me skinny They don't know it hurts my thighs running because there is so fucking much fat vibrating and hurting I hate that kind of fucker because it make the heavy people feel more bad I was so fucking close to self harm Why does all the fucking people have to be so fucking rude???? I just hate everything right now Even hate to cry about this —.—