Dae/Mercy

One reason I've been avoiding new media and rewatching the same old stuff over and over is because I don't know if I can mentally or emotionally handle yet another ship that isn't canon. LMAO. I know myself and I will get obsessed with the one ship that is absolutely never going to become canon ever, and man... I'm tired. I'm too tired for that. I'm trying to get through Star Trek though anyway.

I'm only finishing up TNG so I'm fairly new to Star Trek, but it's made me so happy so far. I'm so attached to the characters, especially the TNG characters. Data is like looking in a mirror with my autistic ass, and Deanna and Riker are so cute eeee. TOS has a special place in my heart though for sure. I'm going through Star Trek with friends so I can't just zoom ahead through the show on my own, so while I wait for the next watch session I'm rewatching TOS on my own. God I love Bones so much, but also Spock and Kirk and just everyone for the most part. I seem to relate to Bones the most though. Tired of everyones bullshit and just wants to go his job and relax.

Going through a (sapphic) break up really gives "For Good" a whole different meaning for me. I'll never be the same person I was before. As much as it sucks, I experienced things I never had that have made me even more certain of the love and affection that I desire in my life. I don't think I regret it. Those few months. The experiences of affectionate and support. All of the firsts. I'm in pain, but I've also...been... well, changed for good. Maybe that's okay. Maybe this new version of me is really where I'm meant to be right now.