Mel

religously thinking about the fact that Kou deepest desire wasn't the 'real' Mitsuba nor him being able to be a human again; it was Mitsuba telling him to die.

I just feel like I can't really live my life anymore. Like I'm not really present. At any free moment I think about imagined stories, those either created by me or others. I read a book or watch a movie-anything really, to make me stop pondering about the present. It's like I can't really think about it anymore, as if I forced myself to think about anything else. I wonder if I will spend my entire life, thinking about life, that isn't even mine.

I just want what they have