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dissijapanese is a term for those who are technically transjapanese, but feel as though they actually are cisjapanese or present as cisjapanese for whatever reason.

Uhhh uhhhmmmmm *gulp*

TransMissingEye Tips!:

Wear an eye patch during your days and nights to train your brain to stop taking signals from that eye!

Come up with a story on how you lost your eye or how your eye became blind! It can help immerse you and make it feel like it's already your reality!

Wear a black eye contact in the eye you want missing! This blocks out most light and makes the eye look almost missing in darker rooms!

Put a large bandage over the eye to seem recently post-op! It'll make it seem even more real!

"maybe im just faking" i say, as i go into another psychotic episode where i think everyone is out to get me

"i dont think im valid enough" i say, hearing whispers and screams in my head

TransToyokoKid

An identity in which one feels that they are or should be a Toyoko kid!

The Toyoko kids are a community of homeless kids and teens in Japan. They are known for dressing Jirai Kei or otherwise alt, making content online, and for often being involved in sex work.

TransBestFriend !

A parasocial flag for where someone identifies as transitioning into someone or somethings best-friend; a best-friend in a trans way.

Intended for but not limited to: parasocial relationships.

ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴏsᴛ sᴇʟғɪᴇs sᴏ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴅ ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴍ sᴏ sᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ ᴏғ ɪʀʟs sᴏᴍᴇʜᴏᴡ ғɪɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ !!! ғᴜᴄᴋ ᴍʏ ʙᴀᴋᴀ ʟɪғᴇ!!!

I haven't had any "what if I'm faking" thoughts ever since I became pro Endo.

I've been in the system since the S era. I've seen it all. At least most of it. It's almost like.. a parent watching their child reach a milestone.. except I'm a 17 year old boy being proud my grown ass headmates aren't abusing each other (bare minimum)

I honestly never thought I'd make it this far. Making it to the point where I'm not a ticking time bomb of "I should kill myself I'm roleplaying DID I'm going to hell I'm a fraud"

It's a shame our core isn't with us. I wonder if she would be proud that we aren't killing each other. That we're living in mostly harmony.. that we love each other.

Our life isn't perfect. No it's kinda ass. But at least we don't live in constant fear of the "evil alters" coming out and hurting others.

This isn't meant to be a discourse post. Just me.. ranting? Content with our situation?

“our trauma wasn’t severe enough. our alters don’t communicate well enough. everyone’s dormant. everyone’s gone. i’m scared. we have too many alters. we don’t have enough alters. what traumatic event caused this alter to formed. we don’t look system-y enough in front of our friends. what if the server thinks we’re faking. what if we are faking.” SO MUCH PSYCHOSIS

us now, traumaendowillo & mixed origins:

“i want bluudud in my head…….oh hi bluudud!” NO PSYCHOSIS