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Quick doodle of Sean's banana occult.

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Don't ask.

Quick doodle of Sean's banana occult.

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Don't ask.

7 years of jumpscares

7 years of PMA

7 years of silliness

7 years of stories

7 years of friendship

7 years of community

7 years of happiness :)

In case you haven’t seen anything about it yet, DON’T SPAM CHATS IN LIVE-STREAMS ON YOUTUBE RIGHT NOW!

This isn’t about a “don’t clog the chat” issue, but a genuine logistical issue with YouTube’s banning system.

During one of Markiplier’s live-streams this past week he had viewers use emotes (especially channel members, who have special emotes) to vote on choices in the stream, and THOUSANDS of people have had their ENTIRE account suspended because of it.

And not just their YouTube account, but their ENTIRE GOOGLE ACCOUNT. This means gmail, google docs, google slides, on top of their YouTube accounts. And it was completely without warning.

Here’s Mark’s video on the issue.

So until YouTube fixes this issue, DON’T SPAM CHATS IN YOUTUBE LIVE-STREAMS. Maybe even don’t watch any live-streams on YouTube right now to be safe, and if you do want to watch one, maybe sign out of your account and watch as a guest to not risk losing your entire google account, or watch an archived version later when the stream has ended.

This is the exact kind of completely stupid shit they do when they try and “fix” things, they end up breaking them more and innocent viewers get hit by it. I’ve gotten used to YT fucking creators over but this is a new low. 

Hey everyone. 

I want to talk about the discourse recently regarding my new editor. This has nothing to do with Robin so please keep him out of it and leave him be.

Some context for those not in the know. Recently I hired someone new to help edit the IRL/Non Gaming content on my channel. Main reasons being that it was a lot for Robin to take on alone and also Robin isn’t up to date on meme culture or actively partakes in it so I brought on someone who is. I also just wanted to create more content and having one person edit all of it is a huge strain, especially with an occasional ramp up into 2 vids a day again when I could.

I will admit my screening process for this person was none at all, that’s on me and I should have done better. People went to their twitter and found a bunch of bad tweets, some were edgy jokes while others were “jokes” that I vehemently disagreed with. I brought this up with the person and they agreed that they were bad and deleted them. They were about 16 when they wrote them which normally I would let slide cos God knows I was a fucking idiot at that age but I think that’s a poor excuse in such a connected and social media driven world we’re in now. I had a huge internal struggle about what to do, I took about a week and ultimately told them that I would keep them on but it could absolutely never happen again. They agreed and showed genuine remorse for the tweets and it was clear that that’s not what they actually believe and agreed they were dumb. I wanted to give them a second chance and prove that they could learn and grow and I wanted to be mature and adult about it. Not just cut and run when things got bad. 

However I have ultimately decided to let this person go and not work with them again. Not because of hyper critical nay sayers and “haters” but because some people in this community were genuinely upset about it. They lost faith in me and felt like they couldn’t trust me anymore because it flew in the face of everything I had morally stood for and preached about before and they were absolutely right. I can reason out everything and debate it back and forth all day but at the end of the day if some honestly great people in this communtiy were genuinely hurt by this, then it’s not worth it. I want my channel and this community to feel like a safe place for you to feel like you can be your true self and connect with other people who feel the same. To build each other up and treat each other with respect and have fun and me hiring this person went against all that. So I wanted to give a genuine,honest apology and say that I am very very sorry. No excuses or anything like that,I was wrong and I fucked up. I want people, especially those in the LGBTQ+ community to know that I truly stand with you, now and alwaty.I’m so very sorry if you lost faith and trust in me over this. 

I wanna talk about the egos for a second. 

They have been by far one of my favourite things that have ever come out of this community and my own brain. I love characters, I love story and I love a good mystery so to have our own lore and plot in this community based around content that I put out there is nothing short of surreal and amazing. Recording let’s plays is awesome but this was something I created and put out there intentionally with high hopes and no one else at the time was doing it and it went over super well. It was incredibly creatively fulfilling. 

However in the mix of all this has come a lot of frustration and headaches too. I am constantly beating myself up over not doing more with them and putting things off because what I want to do with them is so fucking ambitious that I stop myself from trying sometimes out of fear of not living up to it and messing the whole thing up. I feel like I have one good shot at a story with them and don’t want to put out something that doesn’t make sense or is safe or is just badly written and kind of lame. I want it to be GREAT but that’s a really hard thing to do, especially when almost the entire creative process for all of this is resting on me. It doesn’t have to of course but it’s my baby and I want to treat it well so I get frustrated when things don’t go EXACTLY how I want with the characters.

Not only that but people fucking LOVE these characters (which is the sweetest thing in the world) so I want to do them justice for all of you as well. Use them as a way of telling a good story with characters you can relate to and designs/imagery that inspires you. Sometimes those expectations aren’t met or are set WAY too high, far too early and what comes out disappoints some people or isn’t exactly what you wanted either. This constant cycle and back and forth in my head has been a huge creative and motivational road block for me. I have ideas and plot points and places I want all this to go but trying to get there has proven hard for me because again, I don’t want to fuck it up. The stuff that I’m trying to do is also just taking so fucking long to talk through. 

Since September is suicide prevention month, I wanted to do something ego-related and spread some PMA. Remember, if any of you are  suffering from depression, please reach out for help. You are loved. You matter and you are enough.

Please remember this, and eventually you'll get through it.