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not a single soul:

me: You see, Jimmy McGill did become exactly the kind of lawyer that Chuck had said he would become, except Chuck was still wrong, primarily about the causality, as it didn't happen because Jimmy couldn't do it any other way, it happened because the society didn't *allow* him to do it any other way, not least bc of Chuck's own contempt and public disregard for Jimmy.

Chuck had all the power to make the Albuquerque legal community respect Jimmy, regardless of his background and education, but he chose to keep punching down instead, punishing Jimmy for everything bad that's ever happened, like he was his bad luck charm. So when the last straw dropped and Jimmy's personality started to split he didn't have a support system to keep him together, he only had Kim, who tried her best to not let him break, but it was ultimately beyond her capabilities (and so he broke but she loved him nonetheless).

i fucked up royally and got caught doing digital piracy in a country where it's incredibly expensive to get caught doing digital piracy.

i don't know how i could be so fucking sloppy. maybe i somehow didn't turn my vpn in due time. or maybe my vpn just leaked my ip somehow.

to make matters worse it'd also happened on a wifi that's not on my name, but on my friend's name, so i've also automatically let her down. well anyways she's decided that it's best to just pay this.

my money situation right now is unfortunately fucking tragic. as in. barely scraping by to pay rent and buy food (joblessness + mental health issues have formed a doom circle). so i just cannot afford this.

i'm asking everyone i know irl to lend me money, but in any case i will have to pay it back eventually and although i'm doing my very best to find a regular and solid income i would deeply appreciate if you could spare a dime for your stupid moot in the meantime.

i have set up a ko-fi goal for this.

and i got paypal (yes darya is my legal name 😑)

"There are so many ways to exercise maternal love in this world and they are not all about adding to our population."

Rhea Seehorn talking about being judged for not having biological children of her own means so much to me.