I Just Want To Sleep

idk if this whole being alive thing is for me honestly

Why am I not allowed to hurt myself, while everyone else can?

I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning

I’m convinced I have a level of patience never seen before because how in the fuck am I still holding my shit together

I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.