I have not written anything for a very long time. Partly this has been due to being busy, but admittedly mainly laziness. Big updates in life: (1) So I'm officially in a relationship now! It feels like it's been a long time, and I can't remember how to do 'this', but overall I'm happier than I have been in a long time. He's like sunshine, and all kinds of silliness. He is a bit taller than me, a bit younger, but we come from such different worlds (medicine vs design) that I feel we grow a lot by being together. He has an aptitude for picking things up, and managed to figure out how congenital adrenal hyperplasia works without me explaining it to him. And he did not even do biology in high school. What a guy! It feels like we have been dating a lot longer than we actually have, and part of me is anxious about the future... but, I figure that if it's worth figuring out, we will figure it out! (2) I'm now almost... halfway done my residency. Urgh. I have been in school for now 10 years since I graduated high school. I warn all the undergrad students in Canada... beware! Stop while you're ahead and choose something simpler and shorter! I suppose that I'm starting to get good at neurology, but there is so much to know, that I feel I will always have an inferiority complex and a 'what-the-heck-am-I-doing-complex'. It's a fine balance of acting confident, feeling like I personally don't know anything, and knowing that nobody knows anything. Oh, medicine. (3) I'm currently on a train to Nara from Kyoto and travelling with both my parents and one of my junior resident colleagues who coincidentally is also my age from my hometown. I am learning that I do not enjoy balancing too many people's needs. I think I travel best with... a lover. Maybe I'll be able to tolerate my own children. The main problem is that I'm not out to any of my present company, and that their needs and desires are so different. I'm ending up as a translator, despite the fact that my last Japanese course was... 10 years ago. Japanese 101. At least I made good use of the money for that course. And no anaphylaxis... yet! (4) On the topic of anaphylaxis, this has started to increase in frequency over the past few years. I've gone to the hospital for epinephrine a couple more times than I think anybody is comfortable with. My reactions have been a bit unpredictable too, which is not a good thing. I guess if you stop seeing any kind of activity on my tumblr page, assume the worst. That was probably a feeble cry for attention. Oops. (5) Gaysian tumblr friends... everyone seems so far removed these days. It's certainly multifactorial and I am likely to blame for most of my perception of isolation. I'm not good at keeping in touch when I'm working or with my boyfriend. Fortunately, I've gotten to meet a lot of the community over the years of travelling, but it's so hard to keep meaningful and regular friendships on an international scale. Nobody ever visits Ontario outside of Toronto which is also a shame, since I have a guest bedroom too. I'm probably just a bit friend-lonely. I don't know if it's residency, my erratic schedule, the smallness of this town, or my personality. Likely multifactorial. I miss you guys... do you miss me too? We recently had a wellness session and I felt for my mental wellbeing I should diary or blog more. Perhaps that will become a reality. I've also attached random pictures from my trip. Yay Japan!
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