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I'm not proud to.be transsexual. Its a matter of great shame for me. Ever since coming to terms with myself and coming out, my life has got worse with each passing year. To cope it with the constant "thinkpieces" and "serious concersations" from my family, the uncomfortable looks when introducing myself, the not-shared photos if they feature me, I've had to numb myself to the point where I can't feel excitement, and every time I laugh it feels forced and feels like everyone knows it. I am utterly ashamed to exist in this world, to be seen as an object of immense shame, constantly belittled and disbelieved, people constantly thinking the worst of me in their head, forming what they think I think before I have a chance to do anything about it: that I'm a liar, irresponsible, sexually perverse etc. Putting myself out into the spotlight leads to he/himming - or worse - they/themming because its the reality of my situation. As long as I live transsexual I live with this shame, and as long as I live with this shame my life gets worse.

I drag my wretched form once more through the torture that is work