𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍 / *

IT JUST MAKES MY HEART GO LIKE

“ you’re not death. they are. “

“ it wouldn’t mean much for me to kill you. when you love someone, it’s easier to do it. “

“ i killed ____. i wanted him to die. “

“ love doesn’t mean anything in your life. you think you can turn it on and off. by pushing a button like you do a light. “

“ i’m bad. you said it yourself. well, i was born that way, see? and what’s more, i don’t care. i like it. “

“ nature is mysterious, but never sad. “

“ i tried to love you. but now i know love is not enough. “

“ maybe i want to feel badly. maybe i’m tired of pretending that nothing bothers me, that all i care about is myself. “

“ i don’t want to be worshipped. i want to be loved. “

“ i’m afraid to turn around. i’m afraid i’ll see nobody. that i’m alone here. “

“ you must destroy us both with that weakness you call virtue. you must keep me tormented with that cruelty you think so pious. “

“ i don’t think i belong in heaven. “

“ be with me always. take any form. drive me mad. only do not leave me in this dark alone, where i cannot find you. “

“ i am different. i don’t even vaguely resemble others, any of them. “

“ whenever a woman has a problem, men always presume it’s love. “

“ i don’t want to pierce you, but how else will i get free? “

“ try as i might, i can’t ever forget. “

“ i do not love you. i love nobody. “

“ i feel nothing for no-one! “

“ i can’t love, i can’t! don’t you understand that? “

“ i have no feelings. get that into your head. “

“ our love was a dream. never lived, only a fantasy. an emotion transparent like smoke. “

“ i will always be hiding in a corner of your mind so you can find me. “

“ there is always something watching me, following me, controlling me. “

“ you didn’t look human. didn’t have any emotions. or rather, you looked cruel. very cruel. “

“ i wish you could stay here forever. just the two of us, isolated from everything. “

“ i’ve been feeling something so strange lately. it’s hard to explain. it’s like a constant state of panic, of anguish. “

“ when the night comes, all that’s left is the anxiety. “

“ you’re the source of all this evil. “

“ i respect your pain. but don’t forget that i’m also in pain. “

“ i’m insane but, sometimes i’m wise. “

“ wise women know well enough what monsters men make of them. “

“ i departed this world without ever having known love. “

“ it grieved my heart to see your sorrow. “

“ the ocean as my companion, the sky as my friend. seagulls… and silence. a great silence. “

“ they say i’m sick. very sick. “

“ i try to find out what’s wrong with me, but i can’t. “

“ everything scares me. sometimes, my whole body trembles. “

“ you seem to distrust me. you think i’m an enchantress… don’t you? ”

“ you’re mine now. from now on… you must devote your whole life to me. “

“ there is no good in me. where should it come from? “

“ i can’t cry. why can’t i cry like other people? “

“ now i’m broken, the toy that god didn’t want. “

“ you’re afraid. i feel you’re afraid. “

“ i want to feel their bones breaking between my fingers. i want to overpower them, drink their blood and wounds. i’ll smash them with my heels and you’ll be there to see it. “

“ the cruel animal is always reading to snap up the innocent who come too close to her she-wolf jaws. “

“ do you think the dead come back and watch the living? “

“ not as good as blood. but it’s stronger. “

“ we women must defend ourselves… or they will bully us. “

“ i’m alive. i’m still alive. i’m here. “

“ men are tricks. they are so simple-minded. “

“ i’m still here. i won’t go away, ____. i’ll never go away. you’ll never get better. i;m still here, i’m in your blood. “

“ dreams or nightmares. madness or sanity. i don’t know which is which. “

“ i can feel with your body. i am you. “

“ a new wickedness is coming, i feel it. “

“ love is about craving. our craving for transformation. and all transformation, all movement, happens because life turns into death. “

“ where is reality? where is the dream? “

“ i’ve always been fascinated by death. the feel of it, the smell of it… and the stillness. “

“ we will return, ____. we will be the wind and the rain. we will be the elements that men fear the most. “

“ i am you, and you are me. “

“ you smell of blood. you’re the statue of a goddess. “

“ how i crave to sink my teeth into your pink flesh. “

“ i wanted to be alone! alone! free! “

“ maybe i should’ve followed the dark voice in my heart, maybe i should’ve run away. “

“ that’s the only truth… being alive. being blood, flesh. “

“ you cannot live in isolation from the human race, you know. “

“ they should’ve known i’d always love you… even if you are different. “

“ there’s so much blood all around me. “

“ you shouldn’t ask questions that are bigger than us. “

“ the pain will fade in time… but the memory will remain for as long as i live. “

“ you’re beautiful like that, with blood on your mouth. “

“ ____, i am your death. “

“ i feel sorry for you and your lack of soul. “

“ i’ll never be like you. i change all the time. “

“ you can do what you want. you won’t get to me. “