Amora 🤍

Because Gwyn's grandmother was a water nymph, aka a lesser fae, who had a child with a High Fae male from the Autumn Court. And it's even said that Gwyn's mother was taken into THE FOREST HOUSE, but was too wild to live there and therefore given/taken to the temple...

His entire life could be different/could've been different. It is those closest to him who see how unhappy he is, and actively take/took away from him the opportunity of having a true home, a father, a life purpose, stability.

I want him to have an happy ending and a good relationship with all the characters who know, or might know: Feyre, Rhys, his mom, Eris, Helion, Tamlin. At the end of the day, besides Feyre and Rhysand who might not have pure intentions, the others would've hidden it out of fear and protection.

Nonetheless, I still want Lucien to put himself first this time and prioritize his own feelings: to crash out, to let it all out, to feel everything he has the right to feel. Even if deception happens out of fear or dare I say love, it is still a stab in the back and he has the right to be upset. I mean, just look at the life he had and the life he could've had (and still can).

I feel like the author will just brush over this and rush a HEA, as she tends to do in the last 50-100 pages. That Lucien might be so emotionally fulfilled with a mate (or whenever even happens to him), the ideia of a father, a home, and a possible reunion with his mother, that she will not allow his character to feel the full spectrum of feelings that come with a lie such as this one. He should be able to mourn what he didn't have, what was taken away from him at birth. Even if he understands people's motives, he is still allowed to honor his feelings... all of them.

★ Overthinking each and every decision: You wanna buy a new phone? Let me learn about the specs and do a review of the entire market, plus 50 reviews on YouTube. You wanna buy a perfume? Let me learn about notes and perfume chemistry to make the best possible purchase.

★ Craving the practicality of people who don't overthink: "Omg they wanted a perfume, went to the store, smelled one they liked and just bought it without comparing it to other perfumes or searching about it??..."

★ Being scared of vulnerability, of not knowing things or looking inadequate: Something as simple as needing to know how a specific coffee shop works before going in. Being afraid of people noticing you are indeed a bit lost and need help. Being scared of not knowing how to proceed in general, therefore always wanting to know at least the basics of how anything operates

★ Having an open mind but lacking that free spirit: There is a universe in your mind and you are so open to learn, question, imagine... but you are stuck in there. You wish you could laugh freely, that you were more expressive, more lively, even that you felt more intensely, or acted more impulsively just for the sake of truly feeling alive. Sometimes people want to shake you.

★ Thinking there is nothing special about your capacities, until you see other people: Not wanting to feel superior to anyone, but having an internal monologue of "no way people like this exist"

★ Caring about accuracy: "... actually... that's not what happened in canon because bla bla bla", "so... that's not the best word because if you say that...", "no, that's not true", "how can people truly be selling cameras on Vinted that don't work for 50€+ ??? That's like 10€", "how can you upload a camera and not even specify what model it is??"

★ Being annoyed by what seems to be lack of common sense: "omg can't this person realize that if they lean against the bar, they're blocking dozens of people from being able to hold themselves?? (on the subway, train etc)"