MaybeItsMe

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: NCT (Band), Multi-Fandom, K-pop, WAYV, NCT 127 - Fandom Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jung Yoonoh | Jaehyun/Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul | Ten Characters: Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul | Ten, Jung Yoonoh | Jaehyun, Suh Youngho | Johnny, Liu Yang Yang, Minnie Nicha Yontararak, Kim Yerim | Lim Kim, Park Sooyoung | Joy, Lee Jaehyun | Hyunjae, Kim Younghoon (The Boyz), Lee Sangyeon, Kim Minji | JiU, Kim Yoohyeon Additional Tags: Ten dies but then Ten lives, Jaehyun and Johnny are siblings, Historical, 19th Century, Isekai, Slow To Update, ??? - Freeform, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Friends to Lovers Summary:

Salary Man Ten Lee dies and transmigrates into the novel “Be loved, Beloved” as the older brother of the main protagonists and antagonists, sisters; Yeri Windsor and Minnie Windsor.

Meanwhile Jai was groomed, his ex didn’t turn up to his important piece and he experienced his own heartbreak and also he has to live with a sense or guilt for something that really isn’t massively his fault? I don’t know if I could be manipulated into tonguing down someone that wasn’t the boyfriend I loved. Teh made his decision and suffered the consequences.

Duh. I loved it. 

It was pretty mellow in comparison to the two previous episodes. From a writer’s perspective, it was definitely bout tying up all the loose ends. 

We start of Oh Aew being the boss bitch that he is, thriving in his school work and eventually in his career. I love that he remains close with his group of Bangkok friends.

 They do kind of hint at some interest from Q, which i thought to be kind of unnecessary? It didn’t really progress the story forward? It just had be yelling at the screen asking for Oh Aew to try it with anyone but Teh. 

Speaking of thriving, Teh is a successful actor with a bad bitch on his arm. Everything should be perfect, but oh no! Something Oh Aew sized is missing from his life! And he has a quick little think and he comes to realisation that he misses...Oh Aew. 

They coincidentally meet, and push through the awkwardness and chat and one thing I will say I appreciate about them as a pair is how easily conversation can flow. They’re naturally meant to be friends as far as I am concerned. They thrive in that lane. 

Oh Aew is an angel, cause he’s not bitter and is genuinely happy for Teh’s success. He always been cheering him on despite the split and my heart melts seeing what a kind soul he is to the core. 

Oh Aew in my opinion rightly rejected Teh, but called in the big guns to give him advice to chit chat. 

Bas! Oh how art I missed you! His little cute precious face, hasn’t aged a day. I would die for him, I’d fist fight several bullets for that kid, I need a Nadao to give Bas his own series with 20 episodes of him just breathing and existing. 

Bas is kind, he is wise and Oh Aew should be smart and snatch him up. But instead; he cries over his big head ex boyfriend with the dimples and rushes cross country to see him again. 

I cannot believe that Nadao would encourage bigamy right in of my salad. Hoon? Married? So what happens to our marriage? What happens to the father of my children now that he marries again to his extremely cute and beautiful second wife? I need answers! 

Teh and Oh Aew got back together. What I appreciated about this scene was Oh Aew called Teh out and it appears that Teh heard him out. They kissed which was lovely and all... not as hot as his kiss with Jai, but hey - that’s Bilkin and Oab’s fault. 

I am indifferent about Oh Aew and Teh getting back together. I loved them together initially. But in the middle they lost me and I’m only really happy for them to be together if it’s what Oh Aew wants, despite the better options he has. I love Teh, but not for Oh Aew. 

Sometimes motherfuckers can just break up and become friends and I would have been fine with that. But this is end game and I know the shippers would have lost their shit if they broke up. Cause Bilkin and Krit got duets to sing, Idk I guess. 

I just wanted to mention that Top is very attractive. Even when Teh was doing that woe is me speech about feeling empty after his success, I was so distracted by how good looking Top is. I also approve of Khim borrowing him for a short period. 

Anyway back to the ending. It was good, it was not fully satisfying for me? Something was lacking. I knew they would get back together, so why do I feel empty? Maybe I need to speak to TOP so he can open my mind up. 

I loved it for what it was. Duh. 

This was a very heavy episode, and I knew that I wouldn’t fully love it for that reason. I was the same with episode 4 of ITSAY as well. All the tears and yelling was a lot and it drains what little emotion I have in reserve. 

I will say I still enjoyed the episode a lot. I know some of the girls and gays did not. They’re mad at the writers for spwitting up their pwecious wittle ship. 

The criticism that I’ve seen thrown around is, why throw in a third person? But my question is why not? Teh is a fucking actor, you don’t think he’s going to deal with any outside interest?

Jai is the first of many temptations that Teh is going to have to deal with. He was the first test for Teh’s faithfulness and Teh failed. 

Now people always bring up, “well if he left Tarn for Oh Aew, then he is someone who’s head can be easily turned”. I can’t say I fully disagree. Sometimes you lose them the way you get them. 

However, I feel like we’re underestimating the importance of Oh Aew to Teh? I think Teh underestimated it a little as well. He got comfortable, and basically took the piss and when Oh rightly left him, he started to realise what he had. 

Oh Aew did the right thing in the end by leaving Teh. The trust was gone, it was over. I feel like he was beyond gracious and kind to give Teh a second chance, once he found out that there wasn’t even a scripted kiss. 

The kiss he witnessed between Jai and Teh was way over the line in regards to chemistry building. But he loves Teh and even though he could smell the bullshit from him, he still tried to push through it. As far as I’m concerned, he can move on without regrets cause he did all that he could. 

As mad as I want to be at Teh, I can’t help but feel a bit bad for him. He lied to Oh Aew and that’s where he fucked up. But at the same time, someone was manipulating him and playing with his emotions. He has to suffer two heartbreaks in regards to Jai and Oh Aew. 

I think if his infatuation with Jai was weak and just based on sexual attraction, I’d be cussing him out, but it was more to him? He respects Jai, and they had aligning goals? I think in a time of doubt and confusion Jai was  supportive for him. He’d lost his confidence not only in his relationship with Oh Aew but also his acting and although he should have consulted all that with Oh Aew, Jai was there and mixed with an attraction that was fatal. 

Now, Teh shouldn’t have been so bloody obvious in front of Oh Aew about his feelings. Confessing to Jai while Oh Aew was upstairs schmoozing with his cast mates? Nah Teh was foul for that and I’m glad that Oh Aew smacked him in with those flowers, it was quite cathartic. 

Teh is a cat with many lives. He is going through all this fucked stuff personally, but he has landed on his feet as far as his career and I’m genuinely happy for him. He’s worked hard to get here, and with his work ethic he’ll get far. I think now he has learned his lesson about keeping it professional and maybe the pitfalls of working closely with directors and their stylings. 

Speaking of directors. Some of you are going to be mad at me, but... Jai is hot and he didn’t do anything wrong. 

Anyway, happy pride. Bye! 

Okay, I’m kidding! Jai fucked up. I think we need to remember Jai is not much older than Teh or Oh Aew. He’s still finding his footing as far as being a professional... he’s not there yet. He’s being lead by a woman whom I don’t think is all the way professional herself. So he’s learning not the best tactics. 

Jai fucked with Teh and his emotions, all for his goal. He compartmentalised everything and in the end he was wrong and I think he knows that and I hope in the future he doesn’t use that technique again. Its cost him a friend in Teh and I think that he’s genuinely sad about that. 

I feel like an emotional pervert, but I loved it. Duh. 

I will start with Oh Aew, because we got a little from him this episode. It was Teh heavy. But my poor baby Oh Aew, what are we going to do with you?

Oh Aew is trying. I have so much empathy for him, because he’s growing as a person and with that growth are changes. He’s an expressive person and he’s making those changes externally which I love for him. 

I’m so glad Oh has a good group of friends in Bangkok, who seem solidly to just love him and he totally deserves that! 

Also if Teh isn’t going to say it, I will; Oh Aew you precious little bean. I’m so proud of you. It’s difficult deciding to change lanes, but you did that and you’re working hard. An A grade is fantastic! You did wonderfully! You grew an audience of followers on social media with that little savvy brain of you, I think you’ll do wonderfully in the AD/Media world. Keep it up bub!

Btw your boyfriend is an idiot, and if you decide to dump him. I’m on your side and I fuck with whatever you decide. Because you tried to meet him halfway, and you did not deserve what he did to you. 

Now... you may have read the last paragraph and think I’ve got heat for Teh, but I don’t? I just wish he was better at communicating his feelings. This was a problem we had to deal with in ITSAY.  If he was open with his feelings, he wouldn’t find himself in half situations he ends up in. 

All of what Teh wrote in that workshop diary was valid. I wanna say, his feelings are valid, you cannot take that away. As i pointed out last week, he’s terrible at accepting change. Even in ITSAY it took him so long to accept that he and Oh Aew were no longer rivals but lovers?

Anyways, I wish he had verbalised everything that he wrote in that diary to Oh Aew. It could be awkward at first, but I think Oh would have appreciated that. Because as much as I think Teh has bonded with and is attracted to Jai, I think he’s just been needing someone to talk and relate to. 

I was very much on Jai’s side throughout this whole episode. I may or may not have a tiny crush on him forming honestly. Because Jai is calm, he’s cool and even though he’s attracted to Teh he doesn’t impose that on him? I know, the standards are low but BL dramas have done this to me! 

Jai being a love rival and being attracted to Teh didn’t bother me at all, because he’s quite likeable as a person. He’s not manipulating Teh or trying to force his feelings on Teh. Their connection has developed organically. 

When Jai and Teh kissed, I wasn’t angry? I had kind of wanted it? I think when you build that amount of sexual tension, it feels a waste to do nothing with it? The kiss was hot too - sorry Oh Aew. But then he pulled away and there was no emotion? It was only Teh? I was so confused? I thought Jai was feeling it too?

I wonder what will happen next episode. I’m so curious. I obviously would not blame Oh Aew if he broke up with Teh. I wouldn’t be upset if they broke up and remained split. As much as I love them together, sometimes shit does not work out? However, I do think they may end up together, but taking baby steps to rebuild their trust? Teh will need to do a lot of grovelling. 

Once again. I loved it. Bigger duh. 

This week’s episode was a little more intense than the first. All that was simmering that was going on last week came  boiling to the surface. I wouldn’t say exploding because it didn’t feel intense persay - kind of just sad. 

First, I wanna comment on the side characters. I’ve always felt this way about the characters written in ITSAY as well, but it’s translating over into IPYTM as well. But the side characters are so likeable! 

Even the potential love rival characters, Jai and Q (is it Q?). Just like Tarn and Bas last season are still likeable despite being love rivals.

The way each of Teh and Oh Aew’s Bangkok friend groups are so likeable?  I have a very soft spot for Top (my little baby hubby), Khim (best girl) and Jai and how they’ve kind of adopted Teh as their little thespian off spring. 

I loved watching both Teh and Oh Aew embark on their acting careers, and seeing how their first experiences impacted them. My stomach twisted as I watched Oh Aew receive his notes and criticisms. 

Not so much his acting notes in his acting classes, those felt necessary, but his notes from the casting people made me internally gip a little. It made me uncomfortable because that shit is real. 

Oh Aew’s feminity is something I’ve always loved, and for him to be called out for that made me uncomfortable. Like to a certain extent, I could understand giving him those notes if he was playing a specific character, but in that casting it felt more like an attack? I don’t know. 

Either way those experiences did not sit well with Oh Aew and he made the decision to move onto something that he both liked and was good at. I really appreciate him doing that - as someone who went through three years of a course I did not fully enjoy in uni, I applaud his bravery for changing his mind. 

I wish I had been able to change up parts of my course, instead of struggling through the rest of the next three years, and sacrificing my joy and mental health for a degree I no longer use to this day. 

Now... The tattoo is cute. The concept is cute. But, I personally think before getting a tattoo of your partner. It’s nice to check in with your partner about it? I can understand Teh’s discomfort at that move. Oh Aew did something permanent without at least discussing with him. 

On the flip side, he discussed his subject change with Teh and although I get Teh being thrown off, his reaction was not... the best. I understood it to a certain degree, because Teh doesn’t give me the impression that he is very flexible as a person. That’s why it was so hard for him to accept his feelings for Oh Aew in the first place. It takes Teh a while to adapt. 

I was on Teh’s side through most of the episode, until we reached the 44 minute mark and he started chiding Oh Aew in front of his friends. That was a total dick move and I wanted to jump into the screen and give him a smack. 

Not just that, but when he reacted poorly against Khim and her decision to become air hostess. He was spitting his dummy out of the pram. Him being narrow minded and inflexible was hurtful to watch, especially because Khim has been nothing but good to him. 

Even if he didn’t agree with Khim’s decision, you could at least try and respect it. Try and support her, but to watch him disregard her situation and push forward with his ideals was upsetting. 

I’m glad in the end he apologised to Oh Aew and expressed his feelings clearly. Admitting he doesn’t like change is one thing, but I hope he learns to accept it. Not when it’s positve and when it suits him, but also when it leads to challenges. 

I’m glad Oh Aew went out to find Teh, and that he dropped his grudge. That he comforted Teh. I’m glad he didn’t hold onto his pride, and heard Teh out. I’m glad they made up. I will say, Oh Aew briefly lost me when he shot strays at Khim. He could have made his point without bringing her into it!

Once again, I love the dialogue so much, it feel so natural. Like someone with a life outside of like being an otaku or bl shipper decided to write a story about real life. The characters feel so realistic, likeable. I’m so glad we have female characters who are not portrayed as villains or brainless. 

This episode made me think of Tul of Maxtul fame. I’m going to paraphrase something he said once about actors: There are actors who are born with talent, and those who have to work hard at it. Teh to me is the former and Oh Aew is the latter. Both actors are valid, but what they need to succeed is passion, determination and like Top said: ‘luck’.

I loved it. Big duh. 

Teh and Oh-Aew returned! Now they’ve moved from Phucket to Bangkok!

I was so glad they tackled Teh’s mama in the first 15 minutes. Instead of dragging it out the whole season! (Some of you other BL writers could learn something). I’m glad that his mama was so accepting and lovely about Oh Aew! The little scene where she and Hoon (my baby daddy) hugged Teh warmed my heart!

I think with Teh’s mother addressed, that may mean that Oh Aew’s parents are going to be the trouble makers on some - we own a resort and we need to pass it onto our son who needs to pass it on to his son bullshit. Fingers crossed, I am totally wrong. 

I love that now that Teh’s mother knows about him and Oh Aew, he’s kind of mask off about loving Oh Aew. Like the stark contrast of them having their first kiss under water away from watching eyes is one thing.

I’d also like to bring up that even though Teh’s mother was out of town, he still was “shy” about kissing Oh Aew in public? Like if I kiss you in public and people who know my mum see us and report to her, then I’m fucked? 

Now his mum knows, he’s slipping tongue inside of the aquarium (when I tell you that I screamed). Teh has no barriers in loving Oh Aew right now and he’s making the most of it. 

I also saw someone on twitter make the point of how much Teh would have repressed out of fear. Now he gets to move full force...

The first episode reminded me of why i loved ITSAY so much in the first place. They know how to build up tension and get things to simmer and thats what we’re getting. 

Oh Aew is trying to adjust to this new life in Bangkok and he’d ideally like to do it with Teh by his side, but Teh is carving out his own path and it means he’s going to give his time to other people. 

Part of me has to remember that Oh Aew is a decade younger than me. Because to me, as disappointing as it is not to see my boo when I want to. I would be fine in the knowledge that my partner is putting his energies into chasing something meaningful. 

Teh may be busy, but he’s also cognisant of Oh Aew’s feelings and is still considerate of his feelings as of now. However Oh Aew is a young person with feelings and it’s harder to control them as a youth who was probably given a lot of love and attention since young and now it’s not coming as easily. 

Episode 12 is done and the show is done. My weeks are going to feel so empty now! That little deviant Nubsib and our sweet, sweet Gene have been keeping me entertained for the last few months!

The ending was satisfying for our two leads. Nubsib did leave his agency as he fucking should, and joined my man Tum and I love that for him. Gene the sweet cinnamon roll did not leave his publishing company as I had hoped but I hope one day he does and gets to write the good shit that he wants to. 

Their little fairy tail - fan service skits were cute. I don’t normally like skits, but I didn’t mind these as they were tastefully done had a thread of connection to Gene and his work. 

I know some of the girls and the gays are still mad at Aey, and I get it. He did not handle his part all that well. But I actually have some empathy towards him? Normally I don’t, but for some reason I can’t fully hate on him?

First of all, Nubsib dating outside of his work shouldn’t be a huge problem in the first place. So the true villain really should be considered the possessive and delusional BL shippers.  Were it not for those goofy bitches, Gene and Nubsib would not have needed to do the press conference. 

However,  you lot putting full blame on Aey are winding me up a bit. Yes, he’s a little bitch for acting like Gene and Nubsib fucked him over, but Nubsib is also a bit of a nobhead as well. 

Both of these young idiots do things without thinking of the consequences. Aey just wanted a petty bit of revenge, he didn’t realise the tide would turn that far and Gene would get hurt that much. Because don’t forget, he still likes Gene. 

Nubsib on the other hand is an actor in this industry, he knows what the fuck goes on. He knows how fans work, and he just ignored that went for his feelings in PUBLIC, which in an ideal world would be like fair. 

HOWEVER, they’re not in an ideal world and his actions have consequences. Yet we kind of gloss over that cause he’s seperated from Gene for like a few months. He gets back with Gene and they have a happy ending. 

Meanwhile Aey has nothing tangible for himself. His family are the fuckiest of fuck faces. Mhok has no back bone, and never stood up for him, so yeah I would not have dated his bitch ass either. Gene who he actually liked, rejected him - which is fair enough but like still would hurt and then Tiffy the only one who was genuine to him left him! 

Aey is left with no one and although he was a little bitch bitch for that stream and some of the other shit he did. If he we compare him to other BL love rivals or villains. He’s bloody tame. He’s a twenty year old and he made some mistakes. He didn’t deserve to be completely abandoned. 

Anyways, I wanna thank the writers, the cast and crew for giving us a wonderful show. My expectations were blown over and over. I love that it called out some of the toxicity of the BL industry - from what the entitlement of the fandom to the vile shit that the stories will try and normalise. 

I also really loved KaoUp as Nubsib and Gene and their relationship. For not only showing a healthier BL coupling. For letting Gene be fucking gay - for giving their parents valid concern that aren’t overblown and end up being resolved through like well thought out dialogue. 

Also it felt like whoever wrote this story was an adult who has been in an actual relationship or knew how one worked, cause when I watched Nubsib and Gene it felt like I was watching a relationship build and blossom. 

The moments of domesticity weren’t super cringe and childish. It was so heartwarming and genuine. I can only compare it to ITSAY and Gaya Sa Pelikula in that their interactions and conversations felt normal and not forced. 

Also we got affection from the two leads that did not feel like it was wedged in there for fan service. Kao and Up have good chemistry, to where it felt like they werent stiff and unyielding, but it wasn’t like overly forced for the fan girls and gays to fetishize. 

Gene definitely thought it through. He definitely saw the end and I think he tried ending it with Nubsib at any chance he could get. From the beginning, he’s been running away from the inevitable. From the first attraction with Nubsib, I think he could tell he was going to fall. I also think he knew there would be an ending, but he gave into his feelings for Nubsib because they were so overwhelming. 

I get both sides. Gene is an adult, he is responsible and he understands the financial consequences of his relationship and it sucks. It blows. I personally would have broken things off with Nubsib, but I also would have bounced and found another publisher to work with, one who would respect my personal boundaries within reason... This was not within reason. 

Nubsib on the other hand, I get it. He’s always wanted Gene, and he loves him and wants to love him out loud. However, that doesn’t pair up well with the line of business he is in. But he’s never given me the impression that he was passionate about acting. It always felt like a means to an end to get closer to Gene. 

In this case, to free myself, to get back to Gene and to stick it to Tum’s sister, I’d see through the contract and quit acting. I’d say fuck them. Potentially start my own agency and poach people. But that’s just me, I’m a petty bitch.

I wonder how this will all play out. We didn’t get a teaser for the next episode, and that’s fine. I’ll just rip my hair out from anxiety for now...

I know Nubsib’s parents had no choice but to accept him cause they knew he would dippity dip with two deuces and choose Gene over them. He was taking beats from bamboo sticks without flinching as a young child. Nubsib is built different.