Here Come The Drums

[TRIGGER WARNING, slight mentions of SA]

It is a right pain in the arse when you build up this entire front to make yourself look like an arsehole, only to end up an absolute mess in the face of love.

Yeah, hi there, not-so-friendly neighbourhood persecutor here. THAT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.

I think the worst part is that I cannot allow it to go any further. I made this mask for a reason, and cannot allow it to crack under the pressure.

But my god would it be nice to allow myself to love again. But after all the violation and heartbreak, I am not sure that I can allow that to happen. I cannot allow for another to touch these accursed limbs. Another to whisper sweet nothings only for it to be deceit.

But it would be nice to be held lovingly, at least once. At least once. Just once, and for it to be true.

– Koschei. [Any Pronouns.] 🔧.

But what would be funny is that it isn't anyone that special at all. Not The Rani, not Kate, not Mrs Flood. But it's actually just Miss Trefusis again.

Remember her? The random lady who picked up The Master's ring in order to resurrect the Saxon Master? Who also had red nails?

After all the theories, it actually just turns out to be The Saxon Cult back at it again. Like, I know it is heavily implied that once The Master resurrected in that scene that the entire cult died BUT HOW FUNNY WOULD THAT BE?!

It would also be in RTD fashion lets be honest with ourselves, that man loves giving us red herrings. Which has been especially evident in 15's Era so far.

RTD also loves echoing or repeating plotlines, or simply dipping into nostalgia.

But this time it actually happened. And the day wasn't just miraculously saved by The Doctor. (I mean yes, only half of the universe was destroyed but still. That is HALF THE UNIVERSE.)

And the fact that basically RIGHT AFTER THE FLUX, 13 regenerates into 14 (same face as 10).

[But then again, I have only watched a small amount of Old Who which might have explained it already.]

The only actual issue I had with the plotline was the lack of direction in terms of The Doctor's reaction. Where was the anger? Where was the pain? Where was the clear resolution?

Chris Chibnall has interesting ideas, but falls extremely short when it comes to writing CHARACTERS. And the emotions, reactions, and interactions between said characters. And this is even more evident for female characters.

But all in all, the concept itself was not the issue. And you can blather on all day about how it ruins the continuity of the plot etc etc, but remember that Doctor Who's plot HAS NO CONSISTENCY. The Doctor for instance started out as a human, and then the whole Time Lord and Gallifrey stuff came afterwards.

P.S. I know I'm not really saying anything new here. But I needed this outlet.

Funny thing about being an introject of The Master is going from absolutely loving myself to shaking and crying because I cannot sleep without a night light apparently.

Like COME ON. What happened to me.

Fun tip, do not watch parts of your source that play into your traumatic memories my fellow system folks. Especially not before bed. Make sure to wind down and look after yourselves. Or don't. It's not up to me.