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Saw the psychiatrist today. Went p well, except she suggested I refrain from keeping a blog until I’ve done more medical research on my disorder. And she’s fine with my idea of being a writer, but that I should write privately rather than on a public platform, at least while I’m healing? Can hardly wait to see the psychologist. Sighs.

It’s so hard to focus on reading, I’m worried it’ll take forever for me to be able to read any sort of medical book. But I’ll try. I re-read some Louis Sachar and Jerry Spinelli yesterday, cried and teared up and such.Need to read more Sachar.

Been finding a lot of old trinkets, mainly pieces of paper, in between books in our house.

Today wasn’t the best day, but am trucking on. Sister and mom password-protected the only laptop I have access to, and my Internet usage is limited to two hours a day. So I was depressed for most of the day, but forced myself to do things, ‘cause that’s what ya gotta do. Things looked up at night once Dad was home. He understands what I’m going through most.

Woke up at 7:42 today.

Finally slept through the night properly without waking anyone else up, like a normal person should.

Was actually a lot of fun this year! It’s been a while since I had a good ol’ Mexican Christmas, since we’ve often visited my sister up in NYC for the past few years. It’s just not the same.

Got quite a few presents from the fam, and a super neat amigurumi yoshi from a friend. Hnngh.

Chrimbus with the cult is on the 27th. Such hype!

What is it but a dream?

Once, I lent someone a book with Carroll’s writings. I mildly regret doing so, because I have not seen this book in years. But at the same time, it made the girl happy, so in the end we all win, I think. Books are wonderful gifts.

This is my umpteenth attempt at having a blog. Hopefully this one has less reblogs and such; that’s kind of what I’m going for here. Original content. Whatever that means, right?

So I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about a month ago now. Been dealing with that. Taking meds. Having trouble sleeping properly. Weird shit keeps happening that I don’t really have anyone to talk to about. So I’m writing a blog instead.

The weird shit I won’t dwell on, because it’s pretty personal, but I’ll talk a bit about the meds. Apparently I’ve been taking too high a dose of a particular one called Epival which is really messing with my body, but the doctor finally suspended it so hopefully I’ll be fine for a while. She's also seeing me earlier than originally planned, so hopefully that works out for the best; I want to stop taking meds soon! Or you know, the lowest dosage, if possible.