mari🦋🪐

& the consciousness vs multiverse theory discourse

────୨ৎ────

here are the lives i inhabit, the realms i govern—where every star is a mirror reflecting a different version of me, and every shadow holds a fragment of my past.

eventually, i will lay out synopses for each realm. i will breathe life into each entry—each bullet point a star in the night sky of my existence, growing brighter as the many dimensions i dwell grow in complexity and depth, becoming richer with every thought shared.

⏾⋆.˚ criminal minds

not standard issue. never standard results.

a young prodigy given the opportunity of a lifetime—one that didn’t just save her life, but gave her purpose too. after her time as a titan, her path shifted again when the behavioral analysis unit called her name. her application landed on jason gideon’s desk not long after his return—an unorthodox entry, but the circumstances spoke for themselves. she was brought in immediately. from prodigy titan to ssa m.m., she now hunts the worst humanity has to offer—and somewhere between cases, she finds something softer: a family, and herself.

…

★. ݁₊ waiting room

a pause between worlds.

this is where i go when i’m not going anywhere. my waiting room is a sanctuary of infinite possibilities and peace—the sound of rain against glass, the murmur of a city too far away to reach me. i built it somewhere high, somewhere quiet and soft, where no world can touch me until i’m ready.

I. introduction

⋆ ✴︎ ˚｡ ⋆. did you find your way in alright?

come sit with me a little longer. ✶ ⋆ .˚ ˖⋆

…

☾ . ݁ arsenal of titans

what began as survival became something more.

i didn’t show up looking to become anything more than what i was. i didn’t even want to be anything at all. but somewhere between trust and training, something shifted. what began as learning slowly became knowing. and before i realized it, i wasn’t just part of the work—i was part of what held it together. i became the face. trained to adapt, to protect, to become whatever the moment required. none of it was meant to happen. and yet, it was exactly what was meant to be.

…

⟡₊ ݁. love and deepspace

cosmic coincidence? i don’t think so.

some stories are written before we ever step into them. in this world of light and shadow, i follow the pull of something older than choice—a gravity that draws souls together across time and deepspace. every meeting feels familiar, like a promise kept, as if i’ve been here before. it’s as if the universe has been gently guiding me all along, placing five stars in my path—each one shining in its own way, each meant to find me.

…

⏾⋆.˚ game of thrones | ☾ . ݁ house of dragons | 𖥔݁.⊹ grimm |

✮⋆˙ better cr | ★. ݁₊ fame | ☆₊ ݁. kpop | ✦₊ ݁ big sky | ✮⋆˙ bullet train |

⟡₊ ݁. attack on titan | 𖥔݁.⊹ resident evil | ⏾⋆.˚ genshin impact |

★. ݁₊ call of duty | ⏾⋆.˚ detroit becomes human | ✦₊ ݁ maze runner |

✮⋆˙ twlight | ⟡₊ ݁. obey me | ☾ . ݁ mystic messenger | 𖥔݁.⊹ f1 |

𖥔݁.⊹ twisted wonderland | ⏾⋆.˚ tracker | ★. ݁₊ devil may cry |

⏾⋆.˚ divergent | ☆₊ ݁. good girls | ✦₊ ݁ countdown | ✮⋆˙ vikings |

𖥔݁.⊹ the last of us | ☾ . ݁ baldur’s gate | ★. ݁₊ death stranding |

⟡₊ ݁. sons of anarchy | ☆₊ ݁. the vampire diaries | ✮⋆˙ the walking dead |

⏾⋆.˚ supernatural | 𖥔݁.⊹ law and order: svu | ✦₊ ݁ house md |

☾ . ݁ scandal | ★. ݁₊ vigilante | ⟡₊ ݁. jujutsu kaisen | ✮⋆˙ siren |

𖥔݁.⊹ the witcher | ⏾⋆.˚ marvel | ☆₊ ݁. dead poets society |

⊹ ᨘ ۫ 🔮 STOP MAKING UP PROBLEMS

☆ ☆ ☆

when it comes to issues people in this community experience, it’s a result of latching onto assumptions that no longer serve you. you understand that all you need to do to manifest is think as if you have it — because an assumption / dominant thought = a thought you keep thinking / repeating — and yet you’re worried about “struggles” that don’t even matter. you’re overcomplicating it because you’ve been conditioned to intellectualize the most simple of concepts because “it can’t be that easy.” i’m here to tell you to drop all of that shit right now, because you’re only nulling your own power. 

manifestation is thought consistency based, your 3d — the world around you — is nothing but a reflection of what you consistently repeat to yourself all the time in regards to certIn topics. the law operates on what you’re thinking most of the time, nothing more, nothing less. nothing exists outside of you because everything is a product of what you entertain in your mind. however, there’s some of you who freak out over doubts that are absolutely pointless in the grand scheme of things;

“how long does it take for me to get it?” “but my circumstances are xyz, how will it happen?” “i’ve been manifesting for x amount of days, why is nothing happening.” “the 3d keeps triggering me and i don’t know what to do.”

the solution to this is simple. so simple, in fact, that you’d wish you’d thought of it earlier: dismiss it. make up your mind and don’t waver. there are two possibilities when it comes to conscious manifestation, you either have it or you don’t. your ONLY job is to think as if you already have it and persist in that line of thinking. i was also in your position, struggling to understand why these doubts keep disrupting my stream of consciousness. eventually, i had enough and firmly declared that time, circumstances and the 3d do no matter. i refused to give away anymore of my power to things that are below me, redirecting my energy into what actually mattered; thinking that i already have it. follow in my steps, re-evaluate your thought process and squash anything that doesn’t serve you. consistency is a choice. you won’t always be in the mood to think in your favor, or have motivation to affirm, but you have to build up the courage to ways think in your favor and stay in that state, regardless of what you “see” around. as long as you have the ability to think, nothing in your reality is permanent. it’s as malleable as clay. understand this;

time is irrelevant 

the 3d is irrelevant 

circumstances don’t matter

there is no delay

tell yourself the facts of the situation. repeat these to yourself when you feel your old worries creep up. there is nothing for you to wait for, the second you affirmed that you have it, you have it. when people say “manifestation is instant by default”, it means reality instantly shifts to match your first affirmation in order to have you experience it as soon as possible. stop contradicting yourself the second you didn’t “see” anything happen, you’ll only produce more of it. fully indulge in the mindset of having it already and realize how silly these questions are in retrospect. everything flowed to me easily and quickly when i committed to thinking that i had it already, despite what was “happening” around me. your manifestations WILL smack you in the face when you least expect it, but you must remain consistent. stop comparing yourself to people who got it in 3 days or less, that’s not the point. time isn’t linear, the only thing that exists is the present. you had it since the first time you claimed it. stick to it, commit to it. consistency > speed. this isn’t a race, this is a mindset shift. reality only reflects the mindset you currently reside in. you’re always manifesting, so you might as well manifest what you want instead of lack. 

go from “i’m going to persist for x amount of days and i’ll see it in the future.” to -> “i’m going to persist because i already have it and i want it to be present in my life forever.”

mentally repeat what serves you, discipline yourself into remaining in the “i have it state”, command what you want to see, and stop making up problems.

Persistence, not perfection

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Conviction is not the absence of fear, doubt, and negative emotions. Conviction is standing in the face of that and saying you have it anyway, because nothing other than what you decide matters.

Stop thinking that you've failed to make an assumption just because your heart is still racing and your stomach still hurts. Your emotions and your body are not god. You can be terrified and shaking in your boots but still standing ten toes down in your assumption

Where I think many people go wrong is the pursuit of perfection. It's the trap of "good enough". When will I be enough? When is what I'm doing good enough to manifest my fucking desire already?? You decide what's good enough, and no one else.

This idea that you have to feel good to manifest, or that you don't have control over when it manifests, the constant song and dance of "doing it right". Law of attraction still has its dirty little fingers digging around inside our hearts

Right and wrong are up to you. There isn't a secret code that unlocks the door, there's no invisible gatekeeper to please, there is only yourself. Have you decided you have it? Have you decided your efforts are good enough or are you constantly punishing yourself.

It is so easy to get lost in what you "should do". Should I be convincing myself or just deciding? Is it ok if I use this affirmation? There is no should.

Do not let shame and guilt destroy you. You should never blame yourself for what is in your reality. You should however recognize you alone have the power to change it.

Stop trying to "fix" everything and ending up spiralling over minor feelings that you can't get to go away. You don't need it to go away. You can literally just decide to keep with the assumption even if you had a stray thought or a flood of emotion. You don't have to hammer down everything that isn't exactly perfectly perfect, because it's yours. Accept that it's yours anyway. Yes I feel like shit, it's still mine. Yes I have doubts, still fucking mine. No I don't understand the "how", it's still mine.

Stop being the observer, hovering over your own shoulder to chastise yourself over every little mistake. You do not need to be perfect to be persistent.

You don't need to "figure out" anything, you don't need to convince yourself or overthink. Manifestation is when you leave all that shit alone and say "no, fuck all of that, I have it".

Trying to micromanage yourself is the easiest loa mistake to make. You end up spiralling for thirty minutes because you had one bump in the road you're trying to force down instead of just saying "sucks, still have it though".

Who cares about belief, who cares about feeling, you are god. Its up to you. I don't care if you feel convinced when you say that you have it, and neither does your subconscious mind.

I'm an insomniac who doesn't drink enough water. If I just go by how I feel I'm gonna think the world is ending. So much of our emotions get falsely attributed to "oh it must not be working" when really, you haven't your body is literally just begging you to go outside or take care of yourself and you're over here like "the universe is against me". No you haven't failed, you're just grumpy and need a nap.

The constant return to "how do I fix it" "how do I manifest" IS living from the old assumption. Deciding that you have already manifested it, regardless of how you feel, is what you need to be doing instead.

Trusting yourself is not this overwhelming influx of dopamine nor is it the complete lack of fear. Having trust is doing the damn method anyway.Having trust is saying, I may not believe it, I may not see it, but it's fucking working. Having trust is getting out of your own way and letting yourself do it without constant double checking.

Conclusion, literally say "nuh-uh!"

"Ok but I don't believe it-" nuh-uh still have it.

"But the 3D-" nuh uh, mine

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Law of assumption. What you assume works is what will work for you.

It doesn't matter what that assumption is or why. If you think repetition will force your subconscious to believe something, then it will. If you want to affirm it and forget it, that's your business. If you want to do twenty backflips, that's your method. If you want to swim to Peru, eat a hotdog, build an airplane, and defeat a samurai in hand-to-hand combat, fucking go for it.

Yes, it can be worth it to make these assumptions "easier" and less energy taxing, but at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how you manifest as long as you're having fun and living the life you want. If you have results, any results, you are manifesting in the right way for you. That's all that matters. (And remember, the law does not stop - you are always manifesting.)

Don't listen to people who try to tell you that you need to manifest in a specific way or that you're "doing it wrong". They're either misinformed, uneducated, or a loser trying to control other people. Either way - not worth your time or attention.

See, we have this concept called “bodily autonomy.” It’s this….cultural notion that a person’s control over their own body is above all important and must not be infringed upon. 

Like, we can’t even take LIFE SAVING organs from CORPSES unless the person whose corpse it is gave consent before their death. Even corpses get bodily autonomy. 

To tell people that they MUST sacrifice their bodily autonomy for 9 months against their will in an incredibly expensive, invasive, difficult process to save what YOU view as another human life (a debatable claim in the early stages of pregnancy when the VAST majority of abortions are performed) is desperately unethical. You can’t even ask people to sacrifice bodily autonomy to give up organs they aren’t using anymore after they have died. 

And here’s another point: When you say that “rape is the exception” you betray something FUNDAMENTALLY BROKEN about your own argument.

Because a fetus produced from sexual assault is biologically NO DIFFERENT than a fetus produced from consensual sex. No difference at all.

If one is alive, so is the other. If one is a person, so is the other. If one has a soul, then so does the other. If one is a little blessing that happened for a reason and must be protected, then so is the other. 

When you say that “Rape is the exception” what you betray is this: It isn’t about a life. This isn’t about the little soul sitting inside some person’s womb, because if it was you wouldn’t care about HOW it got there, only that it is a little life that needs protecting.

When you say “rape is the exception” what you say is this: You are treating pregnancy as a punishment. You are PUNISHING people who have had CONSENSUAL SEX but don’t want to go through a pregnancy. People who DARED to have consensual sex without the goal of procreation in mind, and this is their “consequence.” 

Now, this kid is only three, and I can’t always understand what he says because he’s still so little. However, he carries himself and has the conversational lilt of an 80-year-old academic, so I absolutely believed him. Also, like any library, not all of our books have been as gently used as one might like, so there’s always a chance that the pages of the book this kid was holding actually had fallen out somewhere, and he was only holding the cover. I hurried over to see if this was the case and he opened the book for me, still very concerned.

He had only opened to the end sheet, that blank page at the front of a book. I turned the page for him to reveal the title page. This look of absolute relief crossed his face and he went, “Oh, silly me. I didn’t look hard enough!”