Semper Libero

I usually solve my problems by letting them devour me.

Actually, there is a word for that. It’s love. I’m in love with her, okay? If you’re looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, it’s love. And when you love someone you just, you…you don’t stop, ever. Even when people roll their eyes, and call you crazy. Even then. Especially then. You just– you don’t give up. Because if I could just give up…if I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice and– and move on and find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be… that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for. But I– that is not what this is.

Ela disse:  meu amor não é casa de praia onde você pode passar bons momentos e ir embora. Se você não sabe permanecer, não me procure.  Sempre gostei de morar só.

Why it took me so long to love myself

We dream in our waking moments and walk in our sleep.

Some nerve you had To break up my lonely And tell me you want me. How dare you march into my heart? Oh, how rude of you To ruin my miserable And tell me I'm beautiful Cause I wasn't looking for love, no. Nobody asked you to get me attached to you, in fact you tricked me And I wasn't trying to fall in love but boy you pushed me And all that I'm asking is that you handle me with caution Cause I don't give myself often But I guess I'll try today Cause I've had my heart broken before And I promised I would never let me hurt anymore But I tore down my walls and opened my doors And made room for one So baby, I'm yours.

You were red and you liked me cause I was blue. But you touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky and you decided that purple just wasn't for you.

You didn't close the door. Left a crack open, I couldn't ignore the faint possibility of having hope in this insanity that we still could be. But we're stuck floating in between. Put me on a shelf, discipline myself to let the sparks die out. Shattering anything that has reflections of you.