Awakening

Yesterday in my yoga class our teacher brought up the topic of fears- not just the superficial ones like spiders and (for me) needles and the ocean, but the deep ones. We each wrote ours down on a post it note and put it on the mirror and she said “how often do you hear fears or failures talked about on social media” and that stuck with me because it is so easy to look at people on social media and think they are happy and have perfect lives, when it reality they just aren’t choosing to post about their fears and bad days- so let’s talk about it! When I️ boil everything I️ am scared of into one thing it ends up being an overall fear of not being “good enough” and going along with that the fear of disappointing people. I️ think this is something that a lot of people can relate to but isn’t something we talk about often. I’ve been thinking about this for about a full day now and it’s made me realize how many opportunities I️ have missed because I️ worry I️ am not good enough for the internship, or I️ won’t be good enough at the sport, or the drawing I️ want to do, or not express ideas because they won’t be good enough. It’s something I️ want to work on because I️ can’t figure out why I️ would not be good enough, who is telling me that, myself?

“Do you love me? Can you love me? The love I love makes love look ugly”