i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you. someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow. i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me.

saint laurent 1978, blueboy magazine

Learning to be joyous about the complexities of people and their hidden worlds. Relieved that I don’t have to oversee and maintain everything; my only job is to keep it pure on my end. I will never have all of the control nor all of the power nor all of the information. Most of it is beyond words. “Everyone should cultivate their secret garden.” Not taking it personally that I don’t take up all the real estate in their mind and body. Being happy for them and their senses, dreams, desires that exist outside of myself. Choosing to love on the distant days and the close ones. The moon and the river are really both perfect, both gorgeous, and they do two separate things, they go two different places. But they work together and I love the tide