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They found me in 2025. A little late I'll agree but I like to believe in better late than never right?

I don't remember my life before Supernatural. How did I even survive without them for this long😂? They feel like my true happiness..in the sense that I was just living before but now I am thriving ✨️

I have never been a part of an active fandom before but even though the show aired 20 years ago..the Supernatural fandom is still so alive. I never understood the line 'The Spn fandom is like a family' till I got to be a part of it.

I got on tumblr for the first time in 2025 and found my people. People who love the show for what it stands for..who respect and admire the hardwork of J2...who are as obsessed with the show as I am!!

I am still catching up with everything here..watching the cons...reading blogs...and all the crazy lore of the cast from the spn days. Being from India...my exposure to this side of the industry has been minimal but I am trying to get familiar with it.

Being new in the fandom in the beginning I got caught in a wrong wave and through those half truths and truly manipulated facts..I was...albeit for a little while...part of the messed up side of the spn fandom..but then I studied more and went out of my way to find the other side of every story and here I am...though I am still trying to figure out whether I am a j2 tinhat or do I believe they are just brothers...Am I wincest shipper or not. I don't concern myself with it. It varies from moment to moment and I allow myself to let it be like that.

What I do know is:

I am a Sam Winchester Girl

Which does not mean I hate Dean..I love him too

I am a Jared Girl

Again which does not mean I hate Jensen...he is just a teeny tiny bit lower in my books

I love J2 content (as if it isn't obvious already)

I see supernatural as the epic story of 2 brothers

I used to love Destiel but Misha ruined it for me

I hate Misha Collins

I hate his fans (hellers...I think?)

That being said..Jensen and Jared made my 2025 a lot bearable. They made me laugh when I was going through my worst days. They gave me hope.

They showed me love❤️

And fuck it if Jared nd Jensen sorted it out among themselves. Good for them but I don't care because my feelings are my feelings. I don't have to get over it just because they made peace with it. Jensen did Jared so bad here at every turn. And for what exactly? Unless he admits smth himself I don't see any reason why Jensen was so out for Jared after showing the "oh we are bsf for life" and "he is my brother my family" theme for 15 years. The one thing that keeps getting popped up on my tl is a pic Jensen used in TW of Dean. But the photo was of Sam and Dean and he edited it out to blur Sam. What was the point of it?? Out of all 15 seasons and 300 smth ep...did he not have a single solo pic of Dean with the impala that he had to use a duo pic of Sam and Dean and then cut Sam presence out of it?? Jensen was just being petty and immature and he did things that a person would never do if they considered someone a brother.

And yes it was only and only Jensen's fault (I don't know what role Daneel played in it..only talking abt the blame between J2 here). Jared did not tweet that because he was "drunk" (wtf)..he did that because he was hurt and betrayed and confused. And even then so what if he tweeted his feelings?? Is it anyway worse than betraying your friend of 15 years? Because apparently Jared was wrong for outing it publicly but Jensen wasn't for not telling Jared that he was going to make a prequel of a show in which they both put their swear, blood and tears for years.

And I haven't seen Jared fans bringing it up at every turn. They seemed to have taken it maturely and most of them has just cut ties with Jensen without dragging it. (Imo we shld have been very nasty abt it but okay we are better than them ig). The hellers and AA's though seem to take this issue as if it's a laugh on Jared rather than Jensen. If I were a Jensen stan..I would erase the memory of TW and would never bring it up and draw attention to it after the flop it was. But his fans are dumb like that and celebrating this thing like an anniversary thing is so stupid and only helps in reinforcing people's belief of what a backstabbing person Jensen can be.