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i haven’t been on here since 2016? but i feel like i really need to vent rn.... idk where to do it without sounding crazy/bothering my friends... twitter would usually be my go-to but i don’t want my friends i know irl to think i’m actually crazy....

i’m not very experienced with relationships/dating so maybe i just don’t know how it works.... but if my boyfriend tells me he has “commitment issues” and then won’t answer me when i question him about it... how am i supposed to feel? bc tbh i feel pretty shitty rn.

we were eating dinner and i got upset. i tried my best to hide it while we were eating but i couldn’t hold it in when we left. i feel like he tries to cheer me up by being cutesy/whatnot but i wish he would just acknowledge that i’m upset & apologize instead of avoiding it and joking around about it. this relationship has truly made me feel crazy sometimes, especially considering it’s only been ~3.5 months since we started seeing each other. i know i should talk about this stuff with him but...... it’s awkward and i’ve already cried in front of him more times than i’d like to admit.