Luna is cooking up in summer

2. the only strong relationship in the show is between dean and sam

3. wincest pairing becomes most popular ship in the show

4. many fans are frustrated that the juggernaut ship in spn is an incest ship

5. castiel appears in show

6. destiel goes wildly popular as a result of fans being relieved to have a mlm ship that isnt wincest

7. resulting destiel flurry shoots the show back to prominence, ushering in a new audience of fans, including stacey abrams in 2017

8. supernatural becomes stacey abrams’s new go-to relaxation show

9. stacey abrams’s frustration with sam’s decisions in season 10??? apparently??? helped form some of her opinions about coalition building in her campaign???? theres a 2018 interview with abrams on blackgirlnerds.com that posits this jkdfhgkjhdfghdfjkg

10. stacey abrams runs for georgia governor in 2018

11. stacey abrams narrowly loses the race in large part due to suppression of black votes

12. stacey abrams spends the next two years advocating for expanding voting access, an effort that has resulted in hundreds of thousands of first time registered voters

13. in the 2020 election, georgia goes blue by a margin of a thousand votes or so

14. stacey abrams’s efforts are given credit for this shift

The original article in the screenshot

Stacey saying she was a fan in 2017

step 1: pretend to be a gay lunatic (he already was a gay lunatic)

step 2: throw step 1 out of the window as soon as someone disrespects the lan clan (his life-long crush's clan)

step 3: play the flute (the instrument well known as the yiling patriarch's spiritual weapon of choice)

step 4: summon the ghost general (the yiling patriarch's right hand man)

step 5: play a song composed by hanguang-jun that only him and the yiling patriarch have ever heard

To their credit they did initially support it. Until of course, they felt I had gotten too invested in my Sunday art class, and pulled me from enrollment.

Art was then something I did in secret, something I learned to feel ashamed of. I’d shove my drawings behind the couch to hide them. Lie about the time spent on art assignments. Feel shame at how only my art teachers ever had compliments for my work. But after I failed to get into the international baccalaureate program - a status symbol, I still woke up to my father ripping pages out of a notebook I had been sketching in, calling every single one trash.

Laughably, my dreams went from artist to animator to architect and finally settled on what could only make my parents proud - engineer. Each step a concession to their concerns until there was nothing left to concede.

“I’ve seen other peoples work, yours is nothing to even compare. You wouldn’t have gotten in.” Was all that was said after I submitted my final university applications.

Of course, after years of being forbidden to practice, of not receiving any support to pursue it, of course it was nothing to compare.

A topic that has come up a lot lately in my therapy sessions is this negativity I still feel towards art. If I feel bad that week due to poor engagement, I also feel shame at the loss of focus and misplaced priorities.

If I look at my work and think this is just awful, I then beat myself up not just for failing to make a good piece but for wasting time and for even caring about something like that. When art is useless why waste time trying to make it better.

But someone I met recently asked me why I didn’t quit my job right then and pursue this full-time.

I explained there were many reasons actually. The sense of instability I experience being one. Feeling beholden to the whims of an algorithm and a crowd terrifies me.

However, internally I felt disgust at their suggestion.

Today I realize, that perhaps at the bottom of all this shame, hatred, and loathing is grief. Grief that in the end my parents were right. That I couldn’t pursue this path. That try as I have, I squandered and missed.

I think I will never be allowed this. And it angers me. And it saddens me. Still I keep trying still I keep moving forward. Still I feel shame still I resist.

The same person then asked why all that mattered.

“I know how a true artist thinks and works, and I know myself. And I draw things to be pretty and safe and appealing. So I know I could never be a true artist.”

“No, you’re just a coward.”