and somewhere in that moment,

𝘛𝘐𝘓𝘓. (틸)

I stop , clutching my throat, whispering "It's fine" as I move on.

⟢ 7teen. gender identity? dont know her. bisexual. he / they / muse / him (in order of preference). neu or masc terms. kin blog (NOT RP. DO NOT TREAT IT AS SUCH.). sideblog ; main undisclosed until i feel comfortable with sharing. ESTP. ⟢ ADHD ; GAD ; Depression ; HPD + more. nicknames are fine :). doubles interact with caution. my hyuna kinblog: @lovenrebel

⟢ favorites: my guitar ; drawing ; writing ; listening to music ; soda ; talking. I love, love, love talking. ⟢ other: i sometimes identify as undead (not often), I have very blurry memories, but the emotions attached to them and the people in it - I feel those very strongly, my memories are sometimes divergent from canon (but also sometimes align with canon), i refuse to tolerate any hate, no matter the character, but especially any of the following: ivan, mizi or luka.

The blade you gave me that day caught fire in the light At my feet , fresh grass rises , I breathe the air you left behind

⟢ the basic dni ; i block freely, it's nothin' personal - just for my own comfort! Live and let live. ⟢ please do not, and i mean DO NOT treat me as a character. I am a person with my own feelings and personality, and it will not always align with the way you or anyone else interprets me. none of the graphics except the header of this blog belong to me.

hyuna and luka both exhibit some androgyny, which is especially interesting as they are the m/f couple of the series. you'd normally expect them to more rigorously follow gender roles than the m/m and f/f pairs, but mizisua and ivantill are almost exclusively feminine and masculine respectively. alnst subverts this expectation, though not without still commenting on the power dynamic inherent to heterosexual relationships.

note: they are specifically not gnc. they still conform. both of them are within acceptable range of presentation for their gender. I would argue no characters are gnc since they do not have the autonomy for it.

besides the obvious visuals, their androgyny is defined by:

luka's infantilisation. he is the 'prince' of the stage, emasculated, and his image is crafted to look powerless to segyein yet lording over other humans. he is feminine, in the way femininity is equated to weakness. he is passive, seemingly fragile, and a tool to his father's ends.

hyuna's forced maturity. she is described as an "old man" character for her capacity to be cold and serious when it comes down to it. she must be masculine, in the way masculinity is strength and power. without anyone else to stand for her, she has to stand for herself, then others as well. it is her independence, to her detriment.

this is also reflected in their segyein guardians. phan is the absent father archetype, despite (possibly) being female, and heperu's vicarious abuse is most reminiscent of how mothers can become enmeshed with their children. these are typical roles due to gender stereotyping: men as emotionless and women as emotional.

all this does not mean that luka (or even hyuna) does not express misogyny. luka clearly does, especially over hyuna, and there is a conversation to be had about how hyuna treats mizi. there is still a power imbalance between genders that can't be resolved easily, and alnst does not shy away from showcasing it within hyuluka's relationship.

as alluded to, this gender presentation mainly comments on maturity surrounding oppressive standards of masculinity and femininity. it highlights hierarchies of power: power/powerless is mature/immature, adult/child, man/girl. it is no coincidence that luka's presentation is forced onto him (femininity as oppression) and hyuna's presentation is a demonstration of her autonomy (masculinity as liberation).

it’s really tragic, because even as a young child, hyuna was forced into a hard situation. in face of their negligent (and who i interpret as unpredictable) guardian, hyuna was forced to grow up and feel an urge to protect and save her brother, because of the overwhelming threat of the society they exist in. even though her wanting to save people isn’t WRONG, it’s widely her only focus, which neglects her own needs. plus, this perspective aligns with her “bigger picture” mentality, which greatly clashes with mizi.

the factor that makes this EXTREMELY saddening is that because of the way she was treated as a child, and how this made her into a fundamentally avoidant person, she cannot grasp how much people love and want to protect her. hyunwoo always wanted to protect his big sister, even if they had issues. luka, while heavily misguided because of his OWN abuse, loved and cherished Hyuna so much, and wanted to keep her by his side for safety. even in their last moments together, luka covers her chest and cleans the blood off of her face. the rebellion, her friends and family, really cared for deeply, even if they had trouble seeing her issues.

actually wrong in this

one, but may I add