LOVE LEITTERS

Tao din naman ako, napapagod. Kaya minsan ayoko rin nagtatanong kung kailan pwede mag - off, kasi sasabihin, bata bata mo pa dali mo nang mapagod samantalang kami dati blah blah blah, na walang wala yang trabaho mo sa trabaho namin noon. Ewan ko ba, ganun ba talaga? Do they really have to compare their lives before and now? Hay. Hirap. Hirap maging anak. Hirap din pag may sasabihin ka, mamimisinterpret naman. Saan naman po ako lulugar diba. Wala naman ako mapagsabihan kasi ayoko rin naman maging “bother” sa mga kaibigan ko. Sa mga pinsan ko, ayoko rin naman magsabi kasi iba iba na rin mga buhay. 

alam niyo ung feeling na may part na nagkamali ka tapos may part din sa kasalanan na ung staff then syempre malalaman ng nanay mo. kahit na na-explain na nung staff sa nanay mo na may pagkakamali rin sila, hindi ka pa rin mapakali, tapos ang lakas ng kabog nung dibdib mo. kasi alam mo na kahit nag-explain na mapapagalitan ka pa rin. ma-fefeel mo na palpak ka in everything. wala kang ginawang tama. mawawalan ka na ng gana sa lahat ngayong araw. hay this feeling.

there are days that i just want to be alone like staying at one place or escape from the reality, think and calm myself from everything. idk i feel something is bothering me but can’t figure it out... i hate this feeling. i just want to lay/sleep down in my bed the whole day and never get up. 

how lucky can i get, my hard drive fell on the ground and unfortunately, it cannot already be read by my laptop. Hay. Painful part was, all of my movies, korean dramas, back-up files in college and at work are there at my hardrive. AND ALSO MY TRAVEL PHOTOS ARE THERE, I just transferred it before my hard drive fell. AY NAKO NAMAN. :( 

might go to japan this year, it might be on nov/dec or jan next year dahil malamig haha. ahhh, i already have plans/iterinary on my mind. however, need to seek for seat sale promos roundtrip and apply for visa; been asking my friends who already went to japan how was it there, how was the food and how they got a visa blah blah. idk for me, as i read the visa requirements for japan, i think its more complicated than korea? anyhow, can’t wait. 

Who needs jowa when you have oppas from kdrama world. Hahahaha. 

what’s wrong with me today? Drank 3 cups of coffee todaaay. Aaaahh, hello palpitation.