lou

the way bernard is all smiles, quips and cuddly when hes with tim only to go back to the apartment that just reminds him of the fact that he felt so unwelcomed in his own home that when he got the courage to leave for the betterment of himself he fell victim to a cult that convinced him that dying for them gave his life meaning.

like, he may have gotten out of the cult but he goes home to the same place he did back then.

the fact that its not decorated even now, your space really reflects your mental health and ive read somewhere that not decorating or personalizing your space could mean you deal with problems by avoiding them, which seems to be the case with bernie.

just thinking about how he found out the chaos monsters were back and that he must be so paranoid and distraught at the thought and then heres tim suited up trying to poke at him and get him to talk about the people who tortured and tried to kill him.