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Hmmmm

So many

Requiem for a dream

Frida (maybe too 5 for me I will def fall for any bi strong woman lead character movie)

Howls moving castle

The dark knight

The beach (interesting watch for whenever u hate participating in society and economy and ur like why don’t I just dip)

Girl interrupted ( way more meaningful to me after doing therapy for the past year)

Eyes wide shut

Fight club

V for vendetta

Matrix (4ever groundbreaking)

i write 2 different journals everyday one is for my feelings realizations and then my other one is for kinda manifestation/gratitude. I wrote “how are you going to make the most of today” on top of every page and right bellow I have B.M.S (body/mind/soul) then I explain to myself how I’m going to do that and for each category

At the beginning of the year I layed out all my goals/visualizations that I have for my future and what tasks I would be doing then and then I wrote down what I was doing daily now.

And now I just kinda make myself aware everyday on how to approach my goals and keep it always in mind. On the other side of the page I have my quick manifestation/gratitude page where I list:

“Today I’m greatful for”

“Today I will be” (and just sort of manifest how I want to feel, things I usually write are smart, kinda, loving, forgiving, healthy etc.

“Today I will” and just kinda list all my tasks it makes me feel like I’m actually also working towards my goals apart from manifesting them.

And then lastly I have “manifestation” where I usually write the same thing everyday and I write it as if it’s happening!

I’d rather give my life than hand her over

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Also, bergamot, being a citrus, is phototoxic. Meaning you shouldn’t wear a lot of it if you plan on going out into the sun. 

It will burn you.

I chose bergamot and cedar because I love both these scents, and because they both feel clean and sort of energizing to me.

In court that day, the judge asked the boy, “Are you afraid?” No, the boy said.

Pipes says the judge seemed surprised, and asked, “Why not?”

Chief’s thesis was that a child who has been abused by an adult can benefit psychologically from the presence of even more intimidating adults that they know are on their side. “When we tell a child they don’t have to be afraid, they believe us,” Arizona biker Pipes told azcentral.com. “When we tell them we will be there for them, they believe us.” ( Article)

They go on runs to protect the child if they feel even the slightest threatened no matter where. If the child needs them to go on vacation with them, they do. Bikers come from across the nation to watch over and take shifts for these kids. And the best part is once you’re adopted into this family as a BACA kid, you’re always one. Even when you’re 40 and the perp gets released from jail, they’ll come meet with you and find your best options for avoiding the person and maintaining the life you’ve built for yourself. Once a BACA child, always a BACA child. In Florida, there’s 100% rate for identifying the perp based on the child’s testimony. Why? Because BACA stands with the child and supports the child so they feel comfortable enough to point out their attacker.

They’re in Canada as well and probably other countries. I met and talked with a native guy who runs the place near me. His name is Shaman. I got in, and I’m considered a BACA child now. Despite being 17, turning 18 when I talked to them. They spent time with me when my abuser was over, they gave me therapy resources. They give you something called a ‘level 1′ where they go to your house with as many bikers as they can, i shit you not a solid 20-40 bikers came from even out of province, and met me. I got to choose my biker name and I got a vest with patches on it and my name on it. They all hugged a Teddybear before giving it to me, and told me if I ever felt the BACA bear was running out of love, to give them a call and they’d refill it for me, and then I got a ride on one of their bikes. Just a day or so ago I went to an annual party with them and they we ate food one of them cooked and had a lot of laughs. 

I’ve never felt as loved as I did being a part of the BACA family. They also gave me dog tags with the names, and phone numbers of my 2 workers.  So I can call them whenever I feel scared. 

BACA is an absolutely wonderful group that will do everything in it’s power to help any child whos been abused. 

And it doesn’t end when you’re 18 either. As long as you get in contact/get your level 1 before you’re 18? you’re ALWAYS a BACA kid. I’m 18 now and they still invite me to parties, ask me if I’m okay, and are there for me. They’re still trying to find me resources for therapy. 

BACA has changed my fucking life. 

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