its literally so easy for me to be empathetic and the bigger person and put in my utmost effort to conflict resolution especially when something is clearly a misunderstanding. but the instance i realise the other party is relentlessly stubborn and has 0 interest in taking the olive branch when i've offered so many OUTS / ins for meagre reciprocation (whether it's through humour or affection or affirmations or repeated apologies) and they are just fucking lazy with 0 consideration..... it's literally over. the image of u in my head has completely MORPHED there is no going back & i will never see you the same way again. like ive never had a friend rage at me / stonewall with no explanation or attempt at communication for this long... what more with something thats objectively a misunderstanding OF a TEXT. and afterwards pretend everything is ok in a group setting i am the last person to ever EVER engage in that fakery i can never do it. i will be diplomatic but to say all that & then lean ur head on my fucking shoulder and not acknowledge the elephant in the room. so dramatic and i even held space for it bc i value the people in my life & accept that everything they are is a pin point to their internal world it's not for me to internalise into mine. but 1.to not even try and regulate ur own emotions and give me/yourself the dignity and 2. the audacity to put it all on me with such little restraint? like its such unhealed juvenile repulsive behaviour at my grown age too i literally live the most peaceful life i WOULD laugh at this if i cared about u just a little less. i think i've developed enough self respect where i refuse to be treated with such entitlement... yes im silly and sweet and harmless and i think ppl get comfortable with me even to the point of seeing me as beneath (which i do not care bc thats their projection im a star and will continue to shine bright so i stay the sweetest brightest star of my beautiful life) but its literally over..... like if you think ur stubborn/petty you have no idea how big my dreams are and how fucking much i want out of this life for my SELF i will snip u off in my head so much. im actually so over this i cannot deal w this childish fakery sooo corny but its literally ur loss asffff