living on coexistence

Elio is cruel and thoughtless and hopeless and so excruciatingly human and I love him so much

Oliver tries to be the adult but he’s just as bad as Elio omg these two

With that ending, I can see why Andre said he liked what Luca did

I went in thinking I was gonna cry. I cried. On a plane. With false lashes on. What kind of drama…

I’d gone in with the thought that the bit with the peach would be too much? But when I got there all I could do was smile because the boys are just so hopeless and I love it to death

The bit where Elio wishes Oliver dead just so that he didn’t have to deal with his feelings = yeah boi we’ve all been there before

The bit where Oliver forgot about calling him by his name broke me. It. Broke. Me.

The bit in Rome with Elio fingering Oliver on the balcony = me squirming in my uncomfortable af plane seat. Bear in mind, I read nsfw fics on the regular in public with a straight face but this was. Phwoar

Subsequently, the part after in the bathroom was somehow simultaneously disgusting and sweet and yet made me go “why”?

Elio and Oliver making out in public in Rome. And then Elio’s admission years later that whenever he goes by that street when he is in Rome, saying that those memories are still alive for him, is just, I feel you. So much.

When it came out that the feelings were mutual and they could’ve had this earlier, I was going yes you two stupid stupid boys.

I made a moodboard for Elio’s realisation that what he took for anger and disinterest, was in fact shyness and they were two shy people because that bit killed me

Elio’s dad giving that speech was everything I thought it would be

Vimini. Just. Vimini. Precious sweet precocious Vimini whom I love and when she died I had to put the book down

Mafalda reminds me of my aunt

Marzia. I hope she got her happy ending

Goitered toucan

EVERYTHING IS SO BITTERSWEET EVEN FROM THE BEGINNING. SO BITTERSWEET. LIKE EVERYTHING. ACIMAN HOW YOU WRITE

get a jug of water and try and drink through it (slowly, with a glass)

have some fruit, something light like a mandarin or some grapes

wash your feet and your face, brush your teeth

make your self cooler rather than too hot (sweating might make you feel worse) 

open a window and breathe in some fresh air

get comfortable

tell yourself you did great for eating instead of skipping a meal

also tell yourself that you can start again at any moment

watch a film or some youtube videos to distract yourself