little lost lantern

a drag path but actually imagining the entire song to be Neil's POV of getting kidnapped and leaving behind his sad duffle bag to show Andrew that he didn't choose to leave and, can you find me?

Not Jean buying blue clothes because Jeremy thought it was a good color or Jean's favourite color being brown because it's "brown like the gaze that sought Jean out in every room" :((((

I was so uncharacteristically depressed yesterday that it alarmed not only me but became noticeable to everyone at home. In my mind I knew my period was coming soon (it started today) but I didn't know that I could get this sad. And every time an emotion wrenches itself out of me - cruel and unfamiliar - before or during my bleeding, my mind goes back to how our professor said that there was no psychological cause therefore no proof of periods fucking up your emotions unless it's irritation from the pain itself.

this is gonna sound like a stupid, stupid question but how do we pronounce jean moreau's name correctly????

there's something really fucking powerful about watching Jean watch Andrew run across the court to save Neil. Idk it just moved me.